_` AnGeL's WiNgS *_

2006-05-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

we lost
BADLY-
de whole of last nitex
n today in sch
soccer was constantly on my mind
i cant stop tinking
i cant stop fearing
b4 de match even started
i was ald super nervous
till i wan 2 burst out n scream
like i saed earlier
dis is a match every1 will wan 2 watch
all eyes will be on u
wen de match 1st starts
me yuan celes nat n sl
r de 1st 5 to start de match
oh yahs
n siva is our referee -.-
anyway i started so full of energy
run n run n run
chase n chase n chase after pq, after shixuan
but i still couldnt stop dem frm scoring de 1st goal
n den another 1
n den another 1
den bout 5 mins later
de 1st kick on my knee came
i was like oh gosh!
den vern sub me
i cried (a little)
not cos my knee hurts
but i tink i played lousy
i feel ive disappointed mani ppl
my team, my cls
frm de veri 1st dae we noe we'll be against 4c
we noe veri well we're dead
every1 noes dey're realli gd
to me we onli hav like 20% chance of winning?
but in de end my cls made me gain confidence
frm 20 to 50%
we trained hard
we trained more den any other clses
we gave each other words of encouragement
in de end we still lose badly
de nitex b4 de match
me celes nat n sl were on9 toking bout soccer
we were like so full of energy
toking bout how we're gg to work tgt
but its still of no use
de 5 of us were chosen to be on court 1st
cos de cls hav confidence in us
n i realli feel ive disappointed every1 so much
i cant control de ball well
all i can do is run
but wats de use?

anyway we had quite alot of fun
playing dis serious match
but i can sae we were realli not on form;
nvm!
anyway its over ler
wats more impt is we had fun
n 4c is realli realli gd
i almost died chasing after dem
oh yahs
n here's a sorry to dose whu ive pushed
especialli pq ly n sx!

though we lost
our guys won both matches
wif 4g n 4i
jiayou on monday!!! (:

im going to eat up all my oreo at home!!!

2006-05-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

eeyer eeyer!!
im scared!!
im nervous!
i realli m!!
arrgghhh!!!
tml's soccer intercls is so scary
vs 4c!!
will be a match mani ppl will wan 2 watch
so kong bu can!
anyway its going to be quite fun
though its gg 2 be so scary
mus hv fun on de field
cos dere's not mani chances in my life
where dere's so mani ppl watching me play soccer
feeling of a superstar!
hahaha!! (:
spectators,
if we do anything silly on de field tml
pls dun luff
cos we'll be so ps!
but if we do smthing seh
pls do clap n cheer
cos will boost our morale!!!!
okie nvm im jus toking crap-

anyway today got 2 play frenly wif 4h
dey're not bad actualli (:
den change 2 4c play wif dem
4c's gd!!
after dat we had frenly wif 4b
dey're gd too!
though its so tiring
dat i almost died
all de frenlys so fun!

anyway i quite like my jersey
cos in my jersey name got mani 'e's
make de whole name kinda cute n rounded! hahaha!

4F girls jiayou for soccer tml!!
though 4c's realli qiang
we mus do our veri best
n believe in ourselves
woohoo!!!!

4F guys jiayou for bball tml too!!
u all can do it de!!
woohoo!!! (:

2006-05-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

had dis veri veri bad flu n cough
dat my whole day's basicalli so blur
cant realli rmb wat happened today in sch
except dat i failed my geog test AGAIN-
n oso dat roysten tan n dat careless whisper guy came to our sch!

toking bout geog
i realli dunno wats wrong wif dis brain of mine
its not like i din study at all
i studied wif nat de nitex b4
i asked her mani qns
i unds de whole chap b4 i leave her place
i studied till 1am
but wat comes out frm all dis hard work?
a 6.5?
sumhow de lowest in de cls?
it jus sucks wen ppl study so much lesser den u
n yet dey score so much betta
after analysing
i finalli came to a conclusion
im not cut out for human geog
cos y??
simply cos i dun hav common sense to ans all dose silly qns-
is dat realli so?
mrs ho asked me to stay baq n toked to me
she saed she's disappointed in me
n she tinks dat dere're other issues affecting my performance in her tests
she says i hav potential asks me to work harder
i will try, dats wat i told her
n i realli will-

n den roysten tan came to our sch today
showed us 3 short films
D.I.Y, monkeylove n careless whisperer
quite interesting larhs
but dun unds de monkeylove at all
den de 'patrick' came to our sch to sing 'ur beautiful'
hardly can hear wat he's singing
but i tink he's realli farnie
today's assembly i de funnest of all ald!

wen ur troubled
jus follow ur heart;
live for urself n not others' opinions
ask urself if ur happi wif whu u r n den situation ur in
dat explains y ur living;(:

thanks every1 for de care n concern today!
im so so touched!! (:
<3 ya all lots!

2006-05-10T20:27:00.000+08:00

shall blog bout my wk!
vern got injured on monday
sumwhere ard de wrist dere
get well soon ya girl!

tues was an emotional day for most of us in de audi
during interaction period.
cos mother's day is coming
ms loh showed us a video of a guy whu's in jail
saying bout wat his mother had done for him since he was young
how she defended him even though she noe he was in de wrong
but no matter how nice his mother is
he has nvr known how 2 treasure her
n took all her love n concern for granted
cant realli rmb wat happen after dat
but 1dae wen he went baq 2 de place he used to live
everything remained de same
his friends,
house,
tress blah
he jus did not see his mother
wen watch till dis part dere's ald mani ppl crying
it suddenly jus flashed thru my mind dat
dere r mani times wen i too took my mother for granted
jus cos im her daughter
she's willing to make any sacrifices w/o any complaints
but how mani times hav i blamed n complained bout her nags
even though i noe she cared? mani;
veri seldom hav i saed a sorry or thnkew deep down frm my heart
veri seldom hav i walked over to her n gif her a hug
jus to tell her how much i love her
to me,
she'll 4eva be dat veri special woman
whu has endured 9mths of pain jus to bring me to dis world
whu has accompanied me thru my ups n downs
whu has guided me along
whu has 4given me for any wrong-doings
w/o her dere'll be no me
i love u mummy! <3

after watching de video
we were given dis pink wif a big 'love' paper
n an envelope
we suppose to write wateva we want 2 tell our mothers in de letter
n de sch will help us post
at dat time
even more ppl started crying
ly me rach sl shandy yuan all cried
so touching!
we love our mothers!!! (:

2006-05-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

ytd was so ps!!!
mr koh actuaLli made us go avt 2 prac our take5 item
in front of de whole cls
n i realli cant even try 2 look at de audience for ONCE!
its bad reallli bad
im veri scared!
cant realli imagine wats it gg 2 be like on dat dae itself
urghhh;
sum1 save me frm dis trauma pls!!!
wat if i flop it?
wat if i made a fool of myself??
arggghHh!!
'confidence!! come to me!!'
ytd's prac was alritex actualli
jus dat we haven thot of de actions n stuff
den jus stand dere
today's short prac has got everything kinda on de track ald!!
so fun so cool!
got much much improvement ler! (:
was kinda thinking bout wats gg to happen on dat dae
i hope none of us will feel shy
every1'll go o stage 2 hav fun!
dun care bout whu's looking underneath
jus pour out everything we hav!!
i will try too de!!
lets do our best n hope we can win ya?! <3

after sch went to make de cls soccer jersey
its realli a torture trying to find a suitable pattern out of so mani
find 1 dats not too boyish n girlish
1 dats nice yet reasonable prices
confirming ppl's jersey names
blah blah blah
after veri veri long
we finalli found 1 dats veri nice
but a little ex onli
hope everything's gonna turn out nice!! (:
but yeah 1 thing
de guy selling de jersey is super kuku larhs!!!
tok 2 him will vomit blood de!

ms fang today came in 2 tell us
dat dere's gonna be 8 sessions of amaths during de holis
each 2-half hrs
yeah its gonna be realli boring n tiring
but guess we'll jus hav 2 work harder barhs
i dun realli mind coming baq for remedials
so lets jiayou!! (:

2006-05-02T21:02:00.000+08:00

went to sch realli slpy today
mummy din slp throughout de nitex in de hotel
she's got dis realli bad habit
of not being able to slp in a place she's not familiar wif
tsk-
slpt wif my aunt n older sis in rm 906
on de afternoon we checked in
we str away go swim
its veri deep larhs!
2. smthing metres lehs!
look down so scary lor!
but din realli had a gd swim anyway
cos nid 2 help take care of my 2 little cousins
n we were like teaching dem how to swim
dey so scared so cute!
hahaha! (:
den dere's dis realli realli kawaii little korean girl
wif dis fat tummy
n she kip singing sum korean baby song
so ke ai!
daddy n mummy went for massage beside de pool
n dey sae its kinda lousae actualli
oh yahs!
dere's dis sexy ang mo bikini babe
whu after sun tanning
jus wear her shirt n skirt over
n den ritex at de spot
take off her bikini inside
means she's not wearing anything under her skirt?
n not even a bra oso??
so open sia!
hahaha!!

ytd come baq frm hotel
me my older sis n 2 aunts decided to play sum mahjong
in de end i end up losing quite abit
den i veri sianx
ask daddy to take over
n i go dance parapara
had so much fun
being so crazy dancing alone
sweat so much
dat i feel so skinny after dat!
hahaha!!

today had health screening
n every1 veri excited larhs!
cos we thot nid to check sum 'will make ppl blush' parts marhs
but in de end nvr
im healthy!!!
check fin de eyes ler
dunnid ask me qns lehs!
so im super healthy!

got de take5 competition during pccg today
basically its not bad larhs
quite entertaining
especialli de 4c guys!
veri seh dance!
but de whole thing today
actualli inspired us to take part oso
so we r in de midst of discussing!
so fun!!! (:

tml is soccer day! (:

2006-04-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

suppose to go make soccer jersey today 1
but me n nat cant go cos got tuiton
so onli vern n soo can go
eventualli de whole thing is cancelled
n postphoned to mondae
but sorri every1!
monday i cant go oso!
cos my cousins r here
n hav to go hotel with dem for free stay
so sorri!!!
but can still call me to ask for opinions n stuff okie? (:

oh yahs
had a hard time discussing wif vern wat 2 put for our jersey names
for de whole of thurs nitex
dat i din even do any work
n finalli decided to put 'ilovekeemeh'!
hahahaha!
dis keemeh is got long long story de
but dun wan 2 sae
veri paiseh!
n my no. is 27!!!
celest is captain
n im vice-captain! (:
friday went for balloting
den we got 4c!
out of so mani clses
we hav 2 meet de so qiang cls
nvm! we will try our best de!
hav fun jiu hao!
jiayou every1!!!!
n hope our jerseys turn out real nice! (:

2006-04-20T19:52:00.000+08:00

my mood was so much betta today
thanks every1 for de concern! (:
anyway vern cheer up ya?
life n death is jus a form of nature
wen its time ppl jus hav 2 go
so dun take it too hard okie
cheer up! <3 ya!

stayed back to study n do hw today
wif ly rach n soo
hardworking okie!
culdnt realli find a place to study
cos dere's no sss
den canteen nid 2 be closed for cleaning
so we sat at sec 1 lvl dere
de place beside 1b
finalli managed to fin de so-diff emaths hw!!

read colin n kero's blog again
i dun unds y so mani ppl kip making sum irritating comments
so wat if dey're gays?
colin loves kero veri much
kero loves colin veri much too
dey love n treat each other even betta den dose normal st8 steads
aint dat wats most impt?
i dun see y so mani ppl hav 2 reject dem
if it realli bothers dem dat much
y bother to visit their blog in de 1st place?
les n gays r like so common now larhs
guess de society has to be educated dat dere's realli nthing veri wrong bout it
dere's jus gonna be dis day wen
fren no. 1 see girl no.1 holding another girl no.2's hand
n ask 'eh ur gf arhs?'
girl no.1 nod head
fren no.1 replies 'orh'
its gg to revolve to such a day wen its nthing to feel disgusted bout
b4 dat i was a anti gay-cum-les
but after reading their blog
realli touched by their love lo
so strong!
so swt!
so evalasting!!
smthing dat not every1 can do de
so jiayou colin n kero!(:

we help u all wen u all in trouble
but wen we nid help
whu will come forwrd n help voluntarily
as a favour in return?
dis is wat human beings r like
always putting oneself b4 others
always being so selfish
always not sparing a thot for others
always 4getting dose ppl whu hav helped dem once
u'd betta make gd ur promise dis time
or i promise wen i grow up
i will make u vomit out every single cent
as a way of helping daddy mummy

anyway i tink u all shdnt blame mummy
or be angry wif her
its not her fot
we shd noe wat she's like
her heart is 4eva so soft
she loves her siblings so much dat she'll help dem
so pls stop blaming her jiex
i jus think its not ritex
to tink dat way;

2006-04-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

wats my prob??
m i jus purely ap-
or is dere smthing wrong up dere?
yeah im pissed
jus dun feel comfortable;
i jus wan to say dere's a limit to everything
can u be sensitive to other ppl's feelings?
sumtimes ur joy is other ppl's unhappiness
n yet u dunno bout it
yes u find it farnie n amusing
but do i tink so?
no defnitely not-
here, im not referring to 1 person in particular

anyway balled after sch n let it all out
felt much betta after dat-
thanks nat celest n ly pei me after sch
let me fa xie!
<3 ya!

walaox!!!!
wat r u ppl's f***ing prob larhs!!
can u jus stop coming to my daddy n mummy weneva u all hand-tight?
we not atm machine okie!
daddy ald having prob wif his business
he told u dat on de phone ald
n wat did u sae
'aiya dun care larhs! u jus help me dis time.'
wat de freaking hell larhs!
wat kinda attitude is dis??
as if we owe u 1 liddat!
n how dare u speak 2 my daddy n mummy in dis kinda tone!
how dare u threaten dem wif ah gong n po po
u noe mummy will be soft hearted n gif in
wth!!!
we dun owe u anything okie!
ur probs u ownself go settle
dun tok 2 us like we MUST help u
jus fuck off n shut de fuck up!!
if u realli so cham
den dun wear branded shirts even at home
i see ur dat beloved wife spend muny like water liddat
ask her stop it n save muny help u larhs ass!
my daddy feeling realli stress ald okie
stop forcing him!
ur jus a piece of shit
FUCK OFFFFF!!!!

sorri to ppl reading my dis entry
cos i feel realli angry
i feel so sad dat my daddy hav 2 help dis idiots fr nthing
n i jus hate their tone!

2006-04-14T19:24:00.000+08:00

ytd was sports day!
veri veri fun day
woke up early in the morn
met wif vern shan2 geraldine ly n sl
went all de way 2 jurong swimming complex
its dso fun larhs!
nobody dere 1
cos dere's basically no1 as crazy as us go swim early in de morn de!
later yuan came to meet us
den played wif de slides n wave pool n lazy pool
all so fun!
guess no guys can go wif us for dis kinda swimming trips lo hor?!!
hhahahaha! (:
shanshan's veri blur!!!
1st she thot she din bring her swimming suit
ended up lending sl's sports bra
den she lost her hp
guess she left her skirt in de changng rm
n sum idiot went to take her phone frm de pocket
n threw her skirt in 1 of de lockers
cheer up girl!(:

den sports day was veri high at 1st
me n vern were like screaming n screaming
after dat become kinda sianx ald
cos kip cheering de same thing so mani times
we oso veri tired ler lars
but dhs did well
we won de overall champ!
n oso cheering competition champ too!! (:
dere was temasek chung cheng n ngee ann too
saw mani cute boys oso!
hahahha! (:

after sports day we went to hav 4F dinner
not bad dere's more den of de cls
incuding shuwen!
cos nat dared wx to ask her
n she saed okie lehs!
went to bugis n all de places r like so crowded larhs
burst diaox liaox
find veri long n decided on seoul garden
but shuwen n kj went home 1st
its so fun eating cooking n toking dere larhs
kip playing n playing
n i tink we so noisy dere larhs!
hahaha!
n dat stupid oil kip squirting out lors!
now i got a pimple liaox
we den tok n tok bout sum interesting stuff
so cool!!
1st time i toked so much 2 shandy
oh yahs 4got to say
she's so chio ytd lors!
den we walked ard thinking of wt to do nxt
but decided to go home
reached home at 11 liddat
veri tired!
but happi too! (:

2006-04-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

i dun realli noe wat 2 blog bout actualli
but dere's jus dis veri sianx n lonely feeling liddat
so decided 2 come n crap here.
anyway baq to 2days ago 08042006
verine's BIRTHDAY!!!
my dear middle hander!
w/o u, dere's no right hander.
u brg joy n laughter to me
ur my sun!!
rmb all dose times we spent tgt
dey were realli nice
dun stop shining ur 'rays' on me okie?
rockk on girl! <3 ya!

omg so mani ppl's bdae coming soon!
so mani april boi n girl-

den today got a batch of narogeen ppl come visit dhs
sum of dem veri chio lors especialli de girl wif de blue ribbon 1 haha! (:
recess onli left me n nat nthing to do
so we 2 played sum gay ball onli de 2 of us!
can imagine how stupid we r??
hahaha!
after sch oso play ball
veri fun
veri fast pace
went home all red n sweaty so fun!!! (:

dunno y de hell
today my brain kip working n working
past memories kip flashing
i hate dis feeling
i hate it wen i start having nthing 2 do
i like 2 do mani things
wun hav time to tink bout other stuff
isit dat veri gd?
sumtimes jus feel like having some pills 2 get memories off my freaking head

im jus a plain girl
i nid a rest too-

empty?

2006-03-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

i thot de typhoon has passed
n its time for de sea 2 return to its calmness
but it din seem so after dis big wind came blowing again
its not dat i dun gif myself a chance
its jus dat im not allowed a chance
i thot im brave enough
but apparently im not
smthings r jus betta not known
it hurts 2 hear
all dese while i jus feel like a fool
y mus u bluff me?
y mus de both of u bluff me too?
2 tink i still believe in dat little gleam of light
u all directed me to
but wateva i dun realli blame u all actualli
anyway im not supposed 2 noe rite
its not dat i believed everything he saed
but dere're jus too mani things dat made me not suspect u
wat hurts most is dat
its jus a day after wat happened
not a wk or even a few daes
dun u tink its realli unfair 2 me?
perhaps everything dat's happened is non-existence
i'll jus take it as a dream
dat seemed so real;

okie enough of dat
anyway tml is our sch's 50th anni!
big day lehs-
n dunno is suay or lucky
me n shanshan got chosen 2 do de party popper thing
den ytd got briefing
to choose whu take which colour out of red n gold
n out of 5girls
im de onli girl taking de gold 1 larhs!
dats so unfair lors
i girl oso marhs y cnt take red de
but nvm larhs
i jus scared i shoot wrong direction
or wen every1 shoot ler
im de last 1 2 shoot de thing
den so paiseh!
mus listen 2 instructions carefully tml ler
so wun make any mistakes
hahaha! (:

get out of my life pls

2006-03-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

whoa got mani interesting things dat happen dese few daes!
sat my mummy not in s'pore
she went to m'sia to shao mu
den i whole dae go out
went bowling wif my sisters n cousin
at nearby queenstown dat safra
4get de name of it liaox
but its veri fun!
den sunday morn
a veri serious thing happened
my older sis n my younger quarelled n nearly fought for de 1st time!!
ive nvr seen dem fight b4 de lors
its jus always btw my n my older sis
but dats all in de past
den dat morn me n my older sis woke up n k-ed at home
my younger sis dun like 2 K de marhs
n she veri loner 1
like to play laptop alone upstairs
but its like since my mummy not at home marhs
den my sis wanted us 2 play smthing tgt larhs
so at 1st my younger sis saed anything larhs she dun mind
so my older sis ask us 2 quick go bathe
den she set up mahjong table
n she waited for us
in de end guess wat
my younger sis gave dat ap face
n saed she dun feel like playin
so my older sis veri angry lors
n dey quarelled n fought
shouting at each other all de F-words
mani things came out frm their mouth
den i was like stuck in de middle
trying to stop dem??
n dey pull me larhs!
i nearly got torn apart larhs!
n my younger sis pull my _ _ _
i was like wth!
okie nvm bout dat
but now my both sisters not toking liaox
i feel veri gao wei lehs!
trying 2 make my younger sis apologise
n not like so loner liddat-

today my older sis suddenly got fever
den she saed she veri scared its dengue
cos her fren's nieghbour dio dengue
n her fren now oso hav high fever
suspected case of dengua oso-
so she veri scared
but jus now she go see doc
its not larhs
its sum micro dunno wat thing
thank god manx!
get well soon jiex! <3

anyway today changed seats
noe become sit wif junru!
my geog-cum-cls seatmate!!
she's gonna tolerate my nonsense everyday liaox
sorri!
but i'll try 2 listen more in cls de-
but wth
im still sitting behind
n i cant see anything hais-
mr koh tai kan de qi wo ler!

2006-03-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

veri tired;
got afternoon lessons all de way till 4
decided to pon tuition
den jus now my fren called me
tok 2 me bout her stuff
coz she broke wif her bf ler
n we were toking bout mani stuff
she cried on de phone
i unds wat she's feelin
it realli aint smthing dat 1 can overcome in like a day or 2
its smthing dat takes mths
n at de same time hav 2 pretend as if nthing happen
so penny dis is for u!
dun feel so stressed up okie?
cheer up ya?!
its not de end of de world!
u so cute
sure got ppl outside waiting for u 2 choose dem de
so ya smile ya?!
u still hav me! <3

anyway got a temp phone
dats damn lao pok!
i dun realli noe how 2 type wif it larhs
but now can contact me liao
shall get my phone repaired soon!
i cant stand it
its so retarded

2006-03-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

how can u freaking act as if u dun care?
orh shd i rather not sae act
but u realli dun even care at all
up till today den i noe wat its all about
so i gif up n let it be pure n simple
it will die down 1dae
i hate wateva is happening 2 u now
1 word- SUCKS
can u at least be more sensitive to my feelings?
shit i tink im starting to envy dem
n i dun like dat feeling
1 word- SUCKS AGAIN!
i tink ive lost de 'haha' thing in my conversations
isit coz its gone in my heart
or i jus refuse 2 let it out?
i dunno
mebbe sumdae i'll find it baq

;irreversible change
once it has gotten its product
u can nvr get its reactants
jus like dat b4
no matter how hard u try
dats how sumthings tend 2 work like

anyway ytd got de star idols finals!!
so so so happi bryan won it!
leo is not gd larhs
i dun like him
he cry too fake ler
where got ppl tok half way den cry de
mus hav music 1st marhs
but he dance not bad larhs
den bryan de muscles
wahs veri big veri solid!
n he veri shuai ytd lors
but he dance veri cute
his muscles seem abit din4 dei3
hahahaha!(:

den today suppose 2 go watch css de
but in de end decided not to
coz like veri sianx liddat
den got mani things 2 do oso
n my stupid phone spoil all of a sudden larhs!
so qi gek!
come out of de audi den my phone black out
cnt even on lors
i thot was no batt
but i came home 2 charge
but still cnt on
now i got no phone ler
any1 got xtra phone can lend me?
i got no phone wif me feel veri weird de lehs!
aiya sianx-

today ms ng came baq ler
n she told me n jess dat
she mentoring we 2 n vern for SSS
quite happi lors
den can improve on our lousy emaths n amaths ler! (:

2006-03-18T16:29:00.000+08:00

wahs veri long nvr blog liaox
dis whole march holis
dere's realli nthing special to tok bout
except dat everyday mus go baq 2 sch frm 9 to 5
quite sianx
but i realise i veri guai wors!
i din pon lehs :)

anyway dat dae wen 2 watch css
i veri sad
coz yuyang's out!
he's veri cute on dat dae larhs
kip smiling n veri gong too
i tink zhiyang shd be out instead lorz
but yeah zy's not bad too
aiya nvm larhs
doesnt realli concern me much too
renfred's gd manx!
dance so well lors! :)
clara's quite gd dat dae oso
she wear de white colour shirt n skirt
suit her veri much
veri chio
will go n watch again nxt wk! :)

2006-03-06T19:05:00.004+08:00

totalli suay day for me;
so mani so mani disciplinary probs
shall start wif frm de morn
at de parade sq
loo suddenly come n catch me n vern frm de baq
n oso sum of our cls guys
we all dunno wat he catch us for
until he asks us 2 go see him during recess
n he saed our skirts veri short
den for all de time he's dere staring at me
as if i de onli 1 get cot
everything bout me is jus not up 2 his expectations
my shoes, shirt, skirt, hair colour, fringe blah-
everything is jus bout me
fine! dat i dun realli care
so he has ruined de start of my day
n every recess still hav 2 go see him
until sch reopens again
sianz-

den after recess is eng lesson
she was alritex at 1st
den me n jess toking bout smthing
she jiu ask me go stand in front of de cls
n say 1 whole lot of shit
say wat if guys tok she can gif mani chances
but if girls tok she onli gif 1 chance
n she'll punish dem severely
like wtf lors!
so bias!
as if she not girl liddat!
ask her to check for bottom constantly
reminding herself she's once a girl too okie!
she ownself oso admit she got betta tolerance for guys de mahs
i ren her ren veri long liaox lors
1st is tok bout my sis in front of 4c
n insulted my mum
i din hate her for dat liaox lors
den now she's so superbias dat i realli cant stand her at all larhs
she tinks she's veri great
nobody dares to oppose her
jus coz she's OLD & FAGGARD!
like i care she's de principal's cher
she got no respect for us
y shd i even respect her lors!
wtf sianx!

jie jie
cheer up ya?
i noe wat it is like for u
coz im feeling de same
but guess he realli aint worth ur love bah
he cant spend ample time wif u
coz he nids 2 work on his company
find sum1 betta
n let him go ok? <3 you! (:

stop it stop it stop it!
i cant stand it anymore
wat do u wan frm me?
i cant gif & promise u anything
so leave me alone ok?
urghh!

exactly 2wks
;waiting for nthing-

2006-03-03T19:07:00.000+08:00

oh jus realised i bout 1 wk nvr blog liaox
okie shall start frm where de day i stopped

saturday-
k-ing day!!
initialli suppose 2 be me yuan vern n sl de
we were so looking 4ward 2 dis daY larhs
veri early jiu decide 2 write down de songs we wan 2 sing!
but sl last min coz of sum reasons cant come
tsk tsk wasted;
so me yuan n vern went to de tm kbox
its like a maze inside manx!
turn here turn dere den reached our rm
n guess wat
vern bought a bowl of ice kachang in
but din fin it
silly girl! haha!
so kip snging n singing like crazy
was standing on de kbox sofa
jumping here n dere like a bunch of crazy freaks!
den de waiters come in we jiu quickli sit down
so kip standing up n sitting dwn lor
quite spas!
vern at nitex got go celebrate kat's bdae so left early
so left me n yuan dere
n we sang all de way 2 bout 7.45
5hrs 45mins lors! songx! (:
n suayly our mrt was delayed coz got track prob
so reach home kinda late veri tired ler
but it was all veri veri fun!!
dun be sad sl!
nxt time we bring u dere again okie? (:

monday to wednesday
nthing special
jus like any other sch day

thurs
dhs bball girls vs ahs
dey lost by bout 11 pts
means dey out ler
dey veri sad but dun be okie?!
coz its not de end
will hav other chance to play in such matches de!(:

friday (today)
sucks manx!!
jus noe dat during de march holis
hav 2 come baq frm monday to friday
except for tues?!
walaox-
i mean de march holis is for us 2 study for o's de
den everyday till 5+
study wat lors?
mite as well dun hav holi
sianx!

i dun realli care anymore
rather not noeing anything
coz it sucks 2 noe
n not get any assurance;
let go, dun wait
coz i noe it hurts;

2006-02-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

went to watch match wif yuan today
dhs vs sac (girls)
n our sch lost by 17 pts i tink
dey all seem so sad
den oso dunno how 2 console dem
dun cry larhs nat!
so seldom see u cry
today half laugh half cry
scared me noe!
cheer up ok?
its not de end of de world
u all still got another match to go!
jiayou! (:

me n yuan r super stupid lors
she told me got our sch badminton match in ahs oso
so we went to de aircon hall dere
in de end got 1 person told us dere's no match today
so paiseh!
n we finalli realise its in vs! -.-
but in de end we din go larhs
me yuan xm jamie n sl
went to nat's hse instead
to watch a 'horny porny movie'
super duper gay!
small innocent kids betta not watch arhs-
n oso go frenster see ppl's 'xie zhen'

its nice 2 see u again in a dist-

2006-02-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

a piece of broken heart;

20-02 shall go n die!
wat a fucking day

its all kinda expected
jus dat i tink im still not ready 2 face up to it
now i unds wat it means by not to put ur whole heart into smthing
jus in case all u get in return is disappointment
i was foolish enuff 2 tink dis can last long
even no matter how disappointed i m
i still dun wan 2 face any of de fact
until ytd-
when i finalli got an ans
when its time for me 2 wake up frm my dreamland
i woke up jus 2 noe its over-
isit coz of her or r u telling me de truth?
i realli dunno
but pls dun let wat i heard today be de truth
its realli a big big trauma for me
dere were so mani times im on de verge of breaking down
n 2 hold baq again
im not angry n pissed coz of wat happened
its jus bout u lying
love is not bout possession
seeing u happi is wat i wan most
if i were to noe u came out wif a stupid story to bluff me
i dun tink i can 4gif u-
urghh dis SUCKS!!!!

;love to hatred? or hatred to love?
where did her charm come frm?

2006-02-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

heys ppL in dis world!!
can u all not be so puo ma??
if u like sum1 jus sae
if dun like jus tell dat person directly
dun gif de person any hopes
dun lead de person on
dun gif dem wrong ideas!
dun gif empty promises dat ur unable to fulfil
dun sae u love her unless u realli do!
uRgH!

2006-02-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

vdae was like 3days ago
n i din realli hav time to come blog bout it
dat dae was rather cool!
went ard giving presents early in de morning
quite busy n oso veri chaotic!
yuan's table's like so full of small small things larhs
her table every vday oso liddat de
den lessons oso din realli hav de mood 2 listen
n i tink i pissed de geog cher off
coz i was dere toking 2 jess all de time
n he kip staring at me
anyway thanks celest n jamie for de BIG doggie!!
its so cute!!(:
sorri dat i made u all broke-
n oso every1 else for all de cute cute presents!
love dem all so much
got so much meaning in every little gift
love ya guys!

IM FEELING SO FREAKING SAD N CONFUSED!
CAN ANY1 UNDERSTAND??

<3 size="1">did i make de right choice in saying no?
i dunno wat im waiting for
dunno wat i wan
all i noe is jus u

2006-02-13T20:56:00.000+08:00

tml is vdae!
so cool-
dere's dis thing bout presents n stuff
every1's jus going crazy shopping for gifts larhs
quite fun larhs like x'mas liddat
hahaha!(:
had a realli hard time looking for presents for every1 lors
scared sum too spas
sum too girly
aiyo veri troublesome jiu shi ler larhs
but dun realli mind going thru all dat for my FRENS!

did sum thinking today
n sorted sum things out
sumtimes u cant force sumthings 2 happen
wen its sumwhere almost at de end
n u noe it but dun wan 2 let go
u jus hav 2 hang on n endure everything
even if u were 2 hav doubts
u hav no reason 2 ask any further
its no longer a matter of whu's ritex whu's wrong
but a matter of whu wans 2 gif in
waiting can be a torture
but oso a pleasure as well
n yes i choose 2 wait-

2006-02-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

today suddenly got dis urge to start my blog again
anyway veri scared bout tml
taking baq o-lvl chi results
n its after sch lors
de whole day im not gonna listen in cls
so scary!
wish me gd luck pls! (:

to de 1 whu said my compo was PATHETIC:
pls dun insult my mother
coz u dunno wat happen
u din see for urself so u hav no right
everything dats on my sis dun reflect bout wat my mother is like
stop going ard telling de whole world ok!
u realli piss me off jus by hearing u sae dat
coz my mother dun deserve such comments frm u ass!
as if u veri gd liddat!
eye shadow put so much
i cant even differentiate btw ur eyes n ur eyelids!

im no supergirl;
i cant 4eva be de 1 giving in
n waiting for u
wat do i realli mean to u-
to me i hav onli qns
n no ans
this time
i waited de longest
i suffered de most
i teared de most
all for u-

im happi but i find it hard too
sumtimes wen i find myself unhappi
i ask myself is my expectations too high?
is it me?
or isit jus u?
i feel neglected sumhow
all i see is an untouchable heart
a mile away frm me;

2005-09-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

wahs veri veri long nvr blog liaox
dun hav de urge 2 go on9 anymore
dunno y-
i jus find no purpose in cuming on9
n chat like b4 anymore

anyway
read smthing
den had dis thing 2 sae
actualli life aint dat nice after all
once u've reached a certain age
wen u start understanding ppL n things ard u
ur definition of happiness would hav changed
in our pri sch days
getting gd results for our parents is our goal
wen our parents r happi
wen we see de smile in their face
n de present dey gif us
we eventualli r happi too
but as we grow older
wen we start noeing wats love n hatred
being happi aint dat simple anymore
things get complicated
n we'll hav 2 start sparing a thot for others
n taking note of every thing ard us
we becum more greedy
n start wanting more den jus pure happiness
we wan popularity
we wan more frens
we wan every1 to be dere for us
we wan de entire wurl
y isit dat wen we're young we tink nthing of dese?

anyway-
1-sided love is 4eva dat heartwrenching n tedious
life's soo unfair
u may love him veri much
but u wun get baQ de equal amt of love given 2 him
or mebbe not even a single bit
but u jus find urself sinking deeper n deeper
into de love trap dat seems no end
now de qn u ask urself is WHY??
y bother to cling on 2 smthing
wen u noe its nearly impossible?
or wen u noe wat u get in return
is jus streams of tears?
u will nvr be able to explain de feeling
nvr be able to understand y
u'll jus find urself entangled in dis complication
u may hav tried to release urself frm dis misery
but is dis possible?
mebbe it is
but it aint an easy task at all
it rquires such great determination
n wen ur in love
u see nthing else but onli him in ur eyes
will u still be able to do soo??
wats worse is dat de other party has been realli nice 2 u
giving u hopes
each time he smiles or toks 2 u
u sink deeper-
n wen de day u tell urself 2 4get him cums
it's really impossible to do soo

dat dae me n frens were toking bout dis
den came to de topic bout confessing
sum of dem sae dey'll nvr make de 1st move
but sum of us dun agree
n my fren saed dis
its de 21st century
wats wrong wif gurls making de 1st move?
gurls n guys r all humans
wat guys can do gurls can too
its jus a matter of whether u dare or not
n i totalli agree wif wat she saes
whether or not
he rejects or accepts u
u'll definitely feel much betta
its like putting down a stone in ur heart
wen u hav an ans for urself
at least u noe how he realli feels
n will stop pinning hopes on him
cont wif ur life! (:

2005-08-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

to [u]--
dere's dis thing i wan 2 sae
i'll always be here 4 u okie??
pls dun bottle everything up
it does u no gd de
i jus hope i can be de fren u turn 2
wen u nid help or wen ur down
dats all i hope for-
n i jus hav 2 tell u dis
sumtimes
sumthings jus cant be helped
we cant expect everything to turn out like wat we wish for
i noe wat ur feeling's like ritex now
dun realli noe wats happening?
feel being stuck in a maze
finding no way out?
everytime u see *
u jus feel soo miserable n affected?
i unds-
but dere're jus sum things not worth waiting for
it'll jus lead u 2 an endless misery
perhaps it cant be helped
but at least do try?
if u try at least dere's a hope
but if u dun
dere's no way ur gonna end dis whole thing
u hav 2 release urself
no1 else can rescue u frm dat position
all u can depend on
is ur determination
girL free urself frm dats wurL u see no ends
it does u no gd
y bother wen u noe its impossible?
im still gonna tell u dis
happi its still a day
unhappi is still another day
soo y bother 2 be unhappi
wen ur happiness is in own hands?
i realli hope 2 see my fren baq soon okie?

anyway i realise life's soo fragile
jus heard dat my aunt's fren's dad
whu's onli 50+
jumped down n committed suicide
coz he's kinda sickly
was jus discharged frm hospital a few days ago
my aunt's fren dint use 2 treat her dad well
as in everytime dey'll argue here n dere
but she realise after he passed away
she regret everything
i mean-
i guess every1 shd treasure n appreciate evrthing barhs
dun regret it onli after he/she has left
perhaps at dat time
it'll all be jus too late ler-
anyway i tink dis yr's not a gd yr
heard of soo mani passing away cases
like both my grandmas
now left wif 1 onli-
sad :(

2005-08-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

dere're jus soo mani things i wan 2 sae!
soo here's it-

to you-
dere're jus soo mani things i wan 2 sae?
but i guess dere'll nvr be such chance-
if dere's anything
jus open ur mouth n ask
let me be de 1 to clear ur doubts
dun play wif de silence-
its not realli dat gd 2 jump 2 ur own conclusions
n treat as if dey're all soo ritex
dun u tink dats abit too unfair to me?
me n u
each deserve an explanation
n i realli nid it
coz all i hav within me
is jus a question mark-

to you-
wat i tink u nid is 2 relax
it has nvr been nice hearing u swearing n cursing all de time
i mean-
where has my best fren whu used 2 play n lame ard wif me gone to?
though ur still de 1 i go 2 wen im down
though ur still my veri best fren
i still wan de joyful u baQ
it has nvr been nice seeing u in a sulky mood
never-
de thing i would like 2 see is de smile
a smile frm de bottom of ur heart
ive lost de sight of it
for a realli long time
will u try 2 find it baQ?
i dunno-
but i noe i'll be dere to help u find it baQ
constantly helping-
gif urself sum time n space okie?
open up to de wurL gurL
dun buckle urself up
cooped up in de small confined space i nvr knew where it was
i nid ur glow
to guide me thru
takkaire! <3

ohh n oso
takkaire vern!!
(ur ankle's too fragile!)

2005-08-20T11:37:00.000+08:00

to you-
nahs 4get it
de boiling temp within me has cooled
i dun realli blame u leR barhs
perhapd wat u saed is jus de mirror of wat others may think
de reality is 4eva dat cruel-
mebbe ur de 1 whu dares 2 stand up
n sae it all out``

to you no.2-
i can onli sae im sorrie
dere's lotx ive yet 2 sae
mebbe u'll cum 2 unds it 1dae baRhs

to you no.3-
i hate u i hate u!!
u veri sucker noe!!!
jus an asshole whu cums asking 4 help wen u nid
n wen u dun
dere u go backstabbing
wats de fucking prob wif u manx!

to you no.4-
yeah i guess we shd be alritex leR ya?
hope u feel betta after noeing wat i realli feel baRhs
it aint easy cuming by dis long way
n all we hav 2 do is TREASURE
de frenship we shared-
thanxx 4 taking de initiative to cuming 4ward
otherwise
de thick layer of wall btw us
will nvr be removed layer by layer ya?
hope we can be baQ 2 wat we were lyk b4! (:

recently soo mani ppL are jus feeling soo down
perhaps dese is jus not a gd mth
i hope nxt mth will cum quickly
4eva ready for a brand new start!

2005-08-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

i dun care-
im gonna pour out everything now!

sumtimes i jus feel soo tired
feel like collapsing sumhow
dere're jus soo mani things i hav 2 consider
this THIS this & dat DAT dat-
u noe smthing called
STRESS???
n u noe smthing called
SICK N TIRED???
i hav it all of dese okie!
basicalli-
LIFE IS JUS ONE BIG FUCK
can sum1 pls cheer me up??
i scared i'll cont flaring at any1 i see-

phew-
baq to topic now
today during recess
me n vern did a super niaox thing!
coz nat n celest went to de malay stall dere maRhs
den jus nice jamie in front queuing
soo dey lazy
jiu ask jamie help dem buy lors
jamie ask dem stand behind her lors
n guess wat?!
a kaobeikaobufreaking woman behind her
jus ask dem to queue up behind
in a super kb tone n look lors!!!
like wtf??
every1 does dat in sch lors
he's not an SC summore lehs
wat gives her de damn rite 2 sae dat??
soo me n vern jus went over 2 where jamie is queuing
den purposely sae veri veri loud
'jamie!! help us buy food!!
we wan chicken wing nuggets blah!'
n we PURPOSELY stand rite behind jamie lors
means we cutting dat kb woman's queue laRhs
dis time she dun dare kb us
she jus gave a bs look
hahahaha!
soo fun!!!

n den chiang todae didnt cum maRhs
for de last 2 periods
soo we went down play ball till damn songx!!

2005-08-16T17:50:00.000+08:00

wahs it has been a realli realli long time
since i last blogged leR ritex?
hahaha!
last wk was realli complicating n messy
on monday my mum went to m'sia 2 visit my grandma
coz heard my uncle say she veri sickly n skinny
soo she n a few other uncles n aunts went in lors
she came baQ on tues nitex
after sending my grandma 2 da hospital in de afternoon
de nxt morning ard 5+ liddat
we received a call
saying my grandma jus passed away
she cried real bad wors
n started to call her other bros n sis
to inform dem bout it
everytime she called 1 of dem
she'll jus cry even worse
she jus keeps blaming herself
of not being able to see my grandma 1 last time
by her bedside till she left dis wurL
after my dad comforted her
she sumhow calmed down abit
n decided 2 go baQ m'sia immediately
as 4 me n both my sis n my dad
we can onli go dere on saturdae afternoon
coz my meix got a test for da direct sch admission thing
wen we reached dere
can tell every1's eyes red red swollen swollen de
obviousli dey cried alot
but da amt of tears dey wept can nvr be imagined
onli after i saw it wif my own eyes
everytime sum1 came 2 offer their last respect
dey cried
or rather my mum n my 4th aunt cried-
i've nvr seen dis b4
even wen my grandpa past away a few yrs ago
de scenario werent as bad
on de last day
wen my grandma's coffin is supposed 2 be buried
my mum completely broke down
she nearly fainted
at dat time was realli worried bout her
i noe my grandma loved her da most out of her 10 children
b4 she passed away
she kept asking 4 my mum
n my mum felt guilty bout it
but like wat ppL always say
'a person whu's bout 2 pass away
werent let da child he/she love most see it'
i believe dats wat my grandma thot of at dat time
we den came baQ on sunday nitex
but my mum stayed dere till tues
n todae she jus came baQ
n has calmed down alot alot leR
was realli relieved

2005-07-29T20:13:00.000+08:00

whoa-
today was kinda mad in sch actualli
me n jess during chem lesson totalli crazy lors!
she's hyper todae too okie
do chem stuff oso can soo happie
hahaha!
den in da end our hardworking vern veri irritated liaox
jiu move her table 2 join wif celest
den after dat we decided 2 join her as well
soo 5 in a row!
den we ask ly 2 move her table cum sit wif us as well

after sch jiu play ball
at 1st quite boring den after dat jiu becum exciting liaox
i told hm 2 go co at 2pm instead of 1.30
den he dis humji kia scared dis scared dat
in da end zhun zhun go co
n i see aiya late liaox
soo mite as well pon 4 da whole thing lors
went 2 play bball wif nat's juniors
at dis time got mani mani npcc ppL cum ask us 4 donations
n buy dunno wat erxin badge lors
1 is like 2bucks!
ex like shit laRhs!
in da end me n nat bought frm angus
after dat me n nat was like thinking of wat story i shd cum up wif
soo dat i can bluff da co PPl
here's our WONDERFUL story!
i had lessons till bout 2.45 liddat
den on my way 2 co rm
i got cot by kiw
n wif his crap
i ended up not able 2 cum
n nat's gonna be my witness
saying she got cot as well!
woots``
nat da pro liar!!
hahaha!

n hors
sum1's damn jian lors
use ji1 jiang4 fa3 on me
i dun like it dude!(:

soo slpy-
ytd nitex did lit till 1+
cai go slp
i buitahan leR
nid 2 catch sum slp-

2005-07-21T21:57:00.000+08:00

i was realli veri touched
to see soo mani of my frens
showing concern 4 me
at dis veri fragile time of me
thnkew 4 every1's concern wors
especially nat-
my bestest fren eva!
i'll stand up soon i hope
i'll be STRONG
i'll be fine de
Let fate decide everything-

sorri 4 saying all dat wors
i guess i was being too selfish leR bahs
to not think bout ur feelings as well?
after today
i unds bout everything
sorri 2 hav made u felt bad-

anyway went 2 pp 4 tuition registration todae wif wen2
soo diff 2 find da place
den oso dunno how
we ended up at da carpark dere
but after dat we went 2 swensens again
n we toked bout mani things n veri long
den we go shop shop n stuff
blah blah
lazy type liaoz!
sianx-

2005-07-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

i tried real hard to hide everything
frm u guys wen i was dere
da temp happiness i got frm u ppL
but wen i reach home
everything starts again
i jus dun seem to get baQ 2 whu i used to be
nthing's gonna change anything
jus hopes sch starts soon
which marks a brand new start 4 me as well-

i dun sense da anxiety in u
perhaps ur love 4 me aint dat great after all

Once upon a time
in a far far away country
dere lived a guy n a gurL
the guy was a foreigner
n came all the way here to further his studies
dis guy n gurL met n were in love
or rather their love at 1st sight was strong
dey dated 4 a short while
but swt things nvr last-
the king found out bout their rls
n coz of sum rules in their country
4bid dem 2 cont wif it
King: "If u dun break wif her rite now
i'll jus hav 2 send u baQ!"
after they've left de palace.....
GurL: "for ur sake.. i'll have to break wif u.."
Guy: "Do u think dats da best 4 me?
GurL: "yes.." [sobbing]
Guy: "But without u i wun be able to study..
i'll still have 2 be sent baQ!"
wen the gurL heard dis
she was veri touched
n cried rite at da spot-
dis kinda true love is realli hard 2 find
met wif bumps
but yet persistent-

*PS: im not da gurL idiot!

2005-07-19T15:07:00.000+08:00

i cried real hard last nitex
coz i noe
once my tears stop flowing
once it all goes dry
it marks the end of everything-

up till now
i dun blame any1
its all up to fate
n i resign to it-

find sum1 betta baRhs
im sure she'll do a betta job den me
all da best-

2005-07-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

i didnt wan things 2 turn out liddat
i realli dun-
i jus thot if i cont denying
the lie can still be hidden
but it jus cant
she knew everything ritex frm da start
soo much till i dun even noe how 2 deny again-
ive let her down-
ive let my family down-
n ive let YOU down-
sorri 2 hav caused u in dis state
but we cant carry on
even if my mum dint find out
we still cant go on
can u tolerate a gf whu cant go out soo often?
can u tolerate a gf whu cant sms u soo much?
can u tolerate a gf whu cant go out wif u soo often?
no u cant-
sumtimes i jus cant help thinking
if u were wif sum1 else
none of dis would hav happened
will u be happier?
no matter wat
we still cant go on
its betta 4 us dis way
i noe u wei leR me hao
n i oso wan 2 wei leR u hao
i dun wan u 2 end up like wat i m now
u hav been given not enuff freedom already
i dun wan 2 see u lose everything
n as 4 me
i guess its time i do smthing bout myself
can onli wish u all the best-

today or rather dese few days
hav been da darkest days of my life
ive lost everything dat i once had
were da days i cried
n smiled no more-
i found no reason
no movement
jus pure pains in my heart
but can any1 unds??
i cried at msgs
i cried at every1's words
i cried at frens' encouragement
i jus felt soo weak

as 4 YOU
dun hav 2 feel sorry
its not ur fot
i shd be da 1 saying sorry
she scared u i guess
i caused ur misery-

2005-07-18T11:08:00.000+08:00

things happen on da veri 1st day of my holi
uve ruined it-
if u wun dat big mouth
telling her wat u tink n wat u heard
she wun hav 2 call ppL n ask dem
n soo she wun noe bout it
i dunno if i shd sae u care bout us?
or shd i sae uR jus a sucker
whu sucks up?
mebbe uR too overly concern
dis matter doesnt concern u AT ALL!
dun u tink uR jus too busybody toking bout it?
dun u tink uR 'concern' 4 us has crossed da limit?
frm da 16th july onwards
uve totalli changed my impression of u!
lets see how uR gonna suffer in sch
uve landed me in such a state
no life, no freedom, nthing
u'll nvr gain baQ my trust again-
*NEVER!-
u could hav open 1eye close 1eye
but did u?
u didnt!
to tink dat we were soo nice 2 u
we've always looked upon u as our'idol'
n dis is wat u gif us in return?
our sad life?
try dat on every1
n see wat a sorry state u'll be in-
but jus 2 tell u dis
i wun change other ppL's opinion of u
soo if u stop going ard haiing ppL
u'll onli hav 1 person in dis wurL whu hates u
soo stop all uR CONCERN-
thanxx 4 ur HELP-

2005-07-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

sum ppL jus dunno how 2 appreciate
da ppL ard dem
n oso da stuff ppL hav done 4 dem
like eg:
[A] has helped [B] to hide smthing frm mummy
n wen [A] is stuck in da same situation
irritating [B] does doesnt-
cant dese ppL jus tink baQ
n unds whu's da 1 helping dem
n if not 4 dem
mani mani things could hav happened
UNEXPECTED!
dis is called 'wang4 en1 fu4 yi4!'

n oso hors
sum ppL can jus be soo scheming
jus coz she's fat
doesnt mean dat others hav 2 be like her
though she may seem like she's encouraging u 2 eat more
is 4 ur own gd
but deep down she jus wans u 2 becum like her
dis is called JEALOUSY!
n she jus kips harping on da pt dat ur too skinny??
which is like not true
coz if she sees any1 of da same size in da streets
she wun even sae anything?
yeah-
a person's heart can jus be read soo easily
mebbe i shd study psychology in future
tinking bout it
shd be quite cooL aRhs!

actualli i was angry de lors!
but i came home real early todae
n changed my blogskin
soo i veri happi!
coz i finalli noe how 2 make my own 1!
yay!!

let me intro to u all!!
da 1 beside me in da pic is my meix meix!
dun she jus look soo like olinda??
n she's my MEIX okie??
dun think she's my older sis
hahaha!

2005-07-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

i finalli did my own blog!!
soo cOoL!
yay!! (:

2005-07-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

lessons r boring as usual
soo i jus go 2 da EXCITING part of da dae!
-*cHi oRaL!*-
it wasnt fun at all alritex
was suppose 2 be da 2nd last person today de
in front of chew guan
but i hav 2 attend my grandma's wake today
den i scared wen it's my turn will be veri late liaox
soo i asked loo lao shi let me go 1st
at 1st i wasnt scared or nervous at all
but coz im 1st
jiu becum damn scared liaox laRhs!
den wen i was practising reading da passage
everything was smooth n nice noe
den wen i walk in front of da cher
ohh no!
here cums da disaster!
i read read read
da front part was nice n smooth again
but wen it was reaching da end ritex
dere's dis word called 'qi1 kan1'
meaning magazine in chi
n i 4get how 2 read da 'kan1' word
soo i jiu "qi1..."
den look at da examiners n
"heh heh.."
n cont reading lors!
i totalli 4get can han guo qu de laRhs!
n another silly part is dat
wen i wan 2 sae crime rate veri low
i dunno how 2 express in chi
den i jiu say " police veri gd.. got do their job"
den now thinking bout it
i say till soo childish laRhs!
dun hav da sec3 image at all lors!
wat da freak!
veri qigek lors!
i shdnt hav saed all dat laRhs
ohh yahs-
anyway da topic was bout s'pore tourism n safety thing laRhs
n oso if s'pore kids can suffer notx
its considered easy laRhs
but i jus dunno how 2 sae!
yuan sure score well de
coz she saed it was easy
n brandon!!
sae soo much crap!
dunno wat merlion n crime rate
wats da link?!
but he tok super long
sure can do well oso de lors!
tsk tsk-
I AM QIGEK!!

2005-07-09T19:30:00.000+08:00

wahs todae was a super happi dae 4 me wors!
though nid 2 wake up super early on a sat
to run 4 da jogathon
i guess it was all worth it baRhs
da gurLs had 2 run 1st
n actualli me yuan jess liying n rach decided 2 walk all da way de
or rather walk half run half
coz my leg ytd jiu veri pain liaox maRhs
but den me n jess decided 2 slowly try run 4 da whole journey lors
n 4 da 1st 1.6km we were quite alritex
we almost fin da whole 1.6 without stopping at all
but after da turning pt jiu bui tahan leR
me n her got stitch
den my leg start pain again
like cnt realli bend liddat
we jiu run a little walk a little
dats y we lag behind lors
but nat got 11th!!
poor nat fell n cut herself on da leg
takkaire okie babe?!
n 3F got 3rd in gurL's poition! (:
but da guys turn 2 run
tink dey slack baRhs
den jiu dint get anything lors
but its realli gd dat dey at least enjoyed demselves baRhs

after dat we had cls outing
we went 2 lagoon food court 2 eat lunch 1st
most of all ate duck rice
me n nat shared duck porridge
which reminded us of youfu!
hahaha!
den we jiu kip walking along da beach
n a grp of us decided 2 go canoeing
which comprises of me,vern,nat,jess,shan2,rach,liying
n oso dick n wenhua!
nat coz got open wound jiu dint want 2 go lors
n da rest go play pool
canoeing was damn fun laRhs!
me n rach shared a kayak
which da rest is single de
tink da uncle shd put a mat on da floor or smthing lors!
da ground is super hot laRhs!
den we still hav 2 carry da heavy kayak 2 da sea dere
den our feet almost chao4 ta1 liaox lors!
at 1st me n rach cnt co-ordinate well
soo once we got into da sea
da kayak jiu knock onto da shore again
me n rach jus fell off lors!
hahaha!
but everything went smoothly laRhs
wif our left-right-left-right shouting
den jiu went on 2 further out in da sea
veri fun feeling da sea breeze
feeling da wave pushing us
but our hands veri suan rowing da kayak lors!
kohman taught us mani patterns
like standing on da kayak
balancing ourselves
den stupid wenhua
tried 2 stand up on da kayak lors!
in da end fell into da sea laRhs!
b4 kohman could tell him how 2 get up da boat lors!
hahaha!
soo all of us tried standing n balancing
n it was realli cOoL laRhs!
we oso lay on da kayak
facing da sky
slping
veri shuangx lors!
soo super relaxing!
shanshan oso toppled over a few times
n its actualli veri nice 2 see da 2 guys helping da gurLs
telling dem wat 2 do n stuff
wenhua n dick realli veri helpful n nice lors!
was realli touched dat though all guys dint wan go canoeing
dey still went n soo cooperative
soo veri happi lors!
den after dat we go bathe
da stupid toilet auntie came in jiu kb kb kb!
sae wat toilet veri wet n dirty
she wash it da 10th time liaox
wateva!!!
ohh yahs! n oso
veRn's adidas bag broke off!!
she bought da same 1 as mine lors
n even more ex less den 1 wk onli
jiu spoil liaox
poorthing!
soo i went 2 near mac dere buy 1 wif her
den went 2 look 4 da rest of dem at mac dere
joined dem play pool
n it was quite fun!
da stupid ball kip flying aRd lors!
my fingers oso veri suan laRhs!
n oso every1~
dun eva eat da frizzy twisties!!
super not nice laRhs!
eeyer!
i realise play pool was kinda ex
35 bucks per table lors!
in da end we had 2 pay 85.60 bucks
n all of us had 2 dig out every bit of muny frm our wallets
n im left wif jus 5cents laRhs!
my ez-link summore not wif me
den had 2 ask 4 coins frm other ppL
soo pathetic manx!
den after dat jiu leave wif
me vern kobe kj dick wh brandon randall n koon
we jiu walk 2 pp
n wen we came out frm da underpath
we heard a loud bang lors
n we ran 2 see wat happened laRhs
a motorcyclist was knocked down by a lorry
wen other ppL push away da lorry
da motorcycle fell onto him laRhs!
he was groaning in pain manx!
soo poorthing!
kobe still sae he saw him vomitting blood jus now lors
ohh manx!
den dint wan 2 see liaox
coz brandon sae its not gd 2 see dis kinda things
soo we cont walking 2 pp lors
but in da end wen we reach near tao nan dere
we took bus instead
coz legs veri suan liaox
n den bought bubble tea jiu go baQ liaox-
actualli was suppose 2 be a super happi day 4 me de
but wen i reach home
mummy jiu tell me dat my grandma jus passed away
no wonder my left eyelid kip twitching lors!
dey sae left is not gd right is gd
soo i was kinda sad laRhs
later im going 2 her funeral
n oso 4 da nxt few days
soo cant go gd concert wif nat leR
sorri wors nat!
soo last min-

2005-07-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

wahs i super long nvr blog again liaox lo!
nat was asking me 2 update
soo i ting her hua
n here i m!
hahaha!
today was damn songx!
played bball during recess
2F vs 2B
den after sch oso 2F vs 2B
bout 1.30 liddat jiu leave 4 co
coz todae is da announcement of da new posts
once reach LT
da entire place is soo crowded wif sec1s 2s 3s n 4s!
soo basicalli da whole co cohort is dere lors
dere's suppose 2 be a competition btw me n wenwen onli
for 1 of da posts- da shou3 xi2[smthing like student conductor]
but coz seniors got mani complaints bout us
me- i pon alot [attendence bout 80% onli]
wenwen- senior sae attitude not veri gd
soo in da end youbao had da position

-CONGRATULATIONS-*
xiang hong: in charge of niche
youbao: shou3 xi2 [student conductor]
amelia: cello & base leader
siyuan: erhu + all da hus leader
zhoumo: ruan3 leader
clara: flute +all da blowing instru leader
eugene: head of welfare
chaihong![miracle!]: in charge of all instru
ruth: secretary
jobina: chairperson!!

-message to my dear senior sizhao!-
heys our co idol!
dun worrie too much okie?
n dun feel guilty bout it oso
we realli dun blame u 4 dat
our veri own capability we noe
n we oso noe wat kinda juniors we hav been
soo not having 1 of us 2 be da shou3 xi2
is smthing dat we had expected
its sumtimes nice jus being a commoner
n nthing impt-
as u mus hav known
we dun hav dat great sense of responsibility within us
n even if we're given da post
mebbe we wun do a gd job at all
letting youbao be
im sure she'll do a much betta job
soo im jus trying 2 sae
dun feel u've let us down
or qian us in anyway
we realli dun mind n dun blame u at all
soo dun take it 2 heart okie? (:

jess u dun seem in a veri gd mood todae
though i dint dare 2 ask
but jus cheer up okie?! (:

wahs tmL got jogathon!
den now my leg's super pain
after playing bball soo long!
see whether tmL i wan go notx maRhs
but i'll go cls outing 4 SURE!
hahaha!(:

2005-06-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

was bout 2 study geog
den i realise i sianx liaox
jiu cum on9 tok n blog n stuff
aiya my geog jus sux laRhs!
no matter how much i stuidied oso no use
da marks jus dun seem 2 improve?
yaRhs jus kinda lost soo hopes liaox
tink i mite as well jus dun study geog
n dun take da maRks 4 olevel!
veri qigek de laRhs!
everytime get baQ geog results jiu shi FAIL
n always da last few in cls
like wtf!
as if i dint study liddat!
aRgh! angry!
feel like jus giving up!

anyway todae
we made mrkoh angry
feel kinda bad actualli
coz more den half of da cls was late 4 his lesson after pe
den he was damn super angry laRhs
soo we 1whole row stand outside
n he slammed da door lors!
can tell he's realli realli veri angry dis time liaox
sorri!!
shall not play ball during recess on thurs anymore liaox
den after sch i veri guai
quite early go home oso
coz wanted 2 study maths n geog de
but ended up on9
n got into dis abc championship thing
kobesong n dick is pro manx!
super fast de!!
but nat wx n ys owe me drinks!!
n im happi!!
smart dick actualli dint play
coz he wans 2 take timing?
smart!
hahaha!
n finalli hm decided not 2 wear camp t 2 sch
after sum tan2 pan4ing..
hahaha!

2005-06-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

today 1st day of sch wors!!
as usual i go sch veri veri tired in da morning
coz hav been slping late at nitex
n wake up damn late sumtime in da afternoon de
but todae suddenly ask me wake up soo early at 6!
summore last nitex slept at like 1+ liddat
i realli bui tahan lors!
den dis morning wear sch uniform i find myself weird
coz i dis holi totalli didnt go baQ 2 sch at all
n da onli time was on last fridae
soo abit weird weird liddat lors
reach sch da seating arrangement change leR
coz dunno which idiots go shift our tables
but mine not much diff laRhs
jus dat nat's separated frm me onli
n oso dick cut his hair!!!
nearly botak!!
during chi presentation he cum out talk
kip acting like monk liddat
hahahaha!!
todae was actualli quite slack laRhs
coz assembly took up 2 periods
got dunno wat SC tok bout sch spirit
n dey forced ppL 2 sae their views
such dat dey wanted us 2 sae da sch's spirit is strong
propaganda lors!!
darren was seh manx!
den alot of boliaox n crappy toks laRhs
after sch got a damn looong co session
i was bored till i wan die manx!
stupid cher kip making us prac da same thing soo mani times?
luckily got smthing make me luff
chi sms hors??
1st time nehs!
hahahaha!(:
n i jus told sum1 bout smthing
u had betta kip it a secret ya?
or i'll kill u manx!
realli

2005-06-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

whiee``!
soo long nvr blog liaox leR wors
decided 2 blog bout dis exciting dae!

-Day OuT wiF mY 3hanDers-*
ytd veRn den ask me if wan go out todae
to either wild wild wet or da jurong complex
den u noe sum stuff happen marhs
n i managed to lie to my mummy sumhow
cai can get out of dat freaking hse
wateva laRhs-
soo we were on da phone at nitex
n decided 2 go to da jurong 1
coz its cheap!!
80cents per child!
n we're considered children!
oso since wild wild wet sure mani ppL de
smart jess wans 2 meet at 10.30 lors!
im like 'Oh nonono!'
ppL holi always slp till 12+ liddat de
10+ sure cant make it de lors!
den we finalli decided 2 meet at bedok at 11.30
which is still super early to me larhs
soo dis morning i woke up at 11.15
den rmbing wat vern saed dat da 1 to reach latest hav 2 treat
soo i pluck open my eyes n quickli rush out of da hse
n how nice!
i reached at 11.33
n smart veRn was da last 2 reach!
woohoo!!

soo we took dis super longgg mRt ride 2 chinese garden
sat down in da mrt [where dere's da metal part veri bumpy 1]
tok lots n lots of rubbish
coz we realli haven met up since holis liaox lors!
soo we finalli reached da stop n walked a looong way 2 da place
den frm afar
we were lyk saying y soo quiet de lors?!
isit not open notx?!
if not open im realli gonna punch veRn's face off laRhs!
aRgh! but veRn sae shdnt be close laRhs
since its a public pool
den we walk in see got sum ppL in their swimming costume
jiu more fang xin leR
but den we started thinking y nobody swimming de??
start worrying again!
n we realise mondays is frm 0230 to 0930 de!!
ohh shit!! it's lyk jus 1230 liddat onli?
soo we went 2 pizza hut n eat tok crap again
walk ard da whole complex
take spas fotos
n we see more n more ppL cuming in liaox
S'poreans r realli kiasu lors!
1hr b4 dey open da gate dey jiu wait dere liaox
make us thot its bout time liaox
oso stand dere like idiots liddat-
hahaha!
den finalli at 0230 sharp dey jiu open da gate
n da ppL started squeezing their way thru leR laRhs!
me vern n jess were still tinking if we shd join da queue notx
or jus wait till every1 goes in den we cai go in
but we still queued laRhs- =P
dere're ppL whu smartli cut our queue
n we were damn qi gek laRhs
ohh yahs!
dere're mani malays dere!
dis jus reminds me of a Malay guy behind us
wearing dis 'cute big' specs!!
den i told veRn 'he seems like dose living in da 19th century de!'
damn farnie lors!!
he's still holding dis pink colour handbag
make him look soo AUNTIE-ISH!!
hahahha!!
soo we FINALLI got in n put our stuff into da locker
how cleva of dem to make muny hors
40cents everytime we opens da locker
after much consideration
me n vern stripped!
meaning our shirt onli laRhs!
but jess didnt wan 2
soo we went to da mushroom thing 1st
make ourselves wet
den went into da lazy pool
but hahahahha!
jess still hav 2 strip coz da lifeguard ask her to!
soo we went baq 2 our locker put jess's shirt
see laRhs!
ask u strip dun wan strip
make us pay 40cents more 4 da locker
tsk tsk
n oso take 2bucks 4 da floats
but decided 2 pay later
n cont wif our playing
den we went to da slides which is like super fast laRhs!
damn scary lors!
ppL were lyk thrown into da pool wen dey reach da end of da tunnel
n how nice of my 2 beloved frens to ask me go down 1st
thanxx aRhs jess n vern! :)
we oso got play da kid's pool
get ourselves 'pricked' by dose powerful water
den we go to da wave pool
jus nice da waves' cuming
soo we joined in n coz we still dun hav da floats maRhs
we jus spasli jump wen da wave's cuming lors!
n we thot its quite boring liddat
soo we went baQ 2 where our locker is
to pay 4 da floats
smart veRn wif da PERFECT VISION thot she saw its jus 2bucks
instead of 5bucks soo we hav 2 make another round 2 our locker
jus 2 take out 5bucks
how smart vern!!
hahaha!

soo we got into da lazy pool again
feeling soo shuang sitting on da floats
n play da slides wif da floats
n den go baQ to da wave pool again!
we waited quite long for da wave 2 cum okie
soo we got 2 da deepest part dere 2 wait 4 da wave
wait wait wait
getting quite bored soo we played truth!
no dare-
coz its quite deep n we're scared to get out of da float
hahaha!
soo dere's dis row of guys at da wall dere
veRn jus dunno how
float float float 2 dem lors!
n she dunno how 2 get baQ 2 us here
n we oso dunno how 2 pull her baQ
soo i cant help but kip luffing at her lors!!
she jus drop out of her float n tried to jump baQ
da guys jus looked at her spas look but dint do anything
how gentleman!!
den while trying 2 save her
me n jess oso kip drifting 2 da guys' side
we were lyk damn trying 2 push ourselves away laRhs!
finalli da wave came n it was quite boring oso
soo we got out n ohh yahs!
vern kip saying da lifeguard damn cute
vern's despo!!
hahaha!!
den we went lazy pool again dunno how mani rounds
den da kids' pool
n we played in da tunnel
under da 'playground'
n scared a little fat malay boi!!
hahaha!!
but we were asked 2 get out by da lifeguard
n he pted 2 da sign saying 'for children 10 and below'
super farnie laRhs!
went 2 da jacuzzi pool awhile onli jiu get up n bathe!!
we bathe tgt!! hahahah!!
as in change onli laRhs!

after dat we went to 7eleven buy food
but found nthing nice
jiu buy crackers n left 4 cheers
but even worse
coz we super hungry liaox
jiu buy 9siewmais n chocs!
me-timeout
jess-mars
vern-snickers
n we ate da siewmais in 3mins
b4 da train came
it tasted disgusting though-
soo we ate our chocs in da mrt n discussing which choc is nicer
den tok lots n lots of crap
took lots n lots of spas pics!
hahaha!!
veri tired n fun day!!
finalli can meet my best of frens
i missedu all
i love u 3hanDers!! :)

2005-05-24T19:40:00.000+08:00

-we lost to 3c-
yes we were disapointed wif ourselves
coz we believe we can do much betta den dat
even if we may not win dem
we cld probably hav scored more
but its okie
we did our best`
3c gurLs r tall
dats smthing we cant deny
though we noe dat da score's drifting further n further apart
but we still dint gif up
we piaed all da way thru
like wat mr koh saed
dis is da cls spirit dat we shd hav
we werent sore losers-
we didnt gif up on ourselves-
dis is da game dat make us feel honoured
make us feel soo proud of ourselves
dis is da game dat will make us rmb 3F always-
though we lost
im still veri happi
seeing da nvr dying determination in my team mates
it realli boosted my morale alot on court
i played da whole match throughout
i dun wan 2 gif up
coz i dun wan 2 let my cls down-
we proved dat winning's not everything
its da team spirit dats most impt
i jus read celest's blog
im seriousli veri veri touched-
n i agree wif wat she saed
winning's not impt
wats impt is dat we play as a team
n wats da use of winning 3c
wen we noe we're sure gonna get a trophy
whether or not we lose or win da match?
n da obvious reason is coz of da colour of da trophy
be it gold silver/bronze
its da colour dats affecting our thots
we play not 2 win
but to make our cls bond stronger
to improve our mo4 qi4-

but still we're able 2 cum soo far
oso hav 2 thank mani mani ppL
whu hav been dere 2 support us
whether or not dey're frm our cls
[David]
my encourager!!
n my 1st coach!!
thanked him b4 liaox
n oso he's more serious den sum of da 3F guys
wen it cums 2 training us
dese few days tok 2 him on9
jiu shi bout intercls
he taught me alot alot of things
thnkew!!
[Hanwee]
our big big coach!!!
hav 2 realli thank him for finding time 2 train us
even on saturdae
n oso todae during our match wif 3c
veri touched actualli-
n he's helped us alot
by coaching us in our zone defence n attacking
he realli realli sounds like a coach lors!!
hahaha!!
thnkew kors!!
[shara]
oso veri gan dong u came baQ wif hanwee 2 train us on sat wors!
n oso 4 todae's match
u've been constantli encouraging us
n coaching us too
soo veri thnkew u laRhs!
*[aLl 3f guys!]
thnkew thnkew thnkew!!
4 always training wif us
during recess n after sch
without u all 2 train wif us
doubt we'll be able 2 find enough ppL 2 train us leR baRhs
sum of u may not hav done much
but im sure each n every1 of u does a part
in walking wif us 2 where we're todae de!!(:
**[aLl team members!!!!!!]**
u all r a whole lot of impt ppL in my life
da constant encouragement we gave each other
da nvr dying determination we hav
n most imptli da cls spirit
is smthing dat made me soo super proud of
we did our veri best 4 every matches
n were sure proud of our results
u all make whu i m todae
even dose whu dint get 2 play
dey cheered soo much 4 dose on court
coz all dey wish 4 is da cls 2 win
their unselfishness is smthing i feel proud bout too
wen 1 triumphs
all triumph-
wen 1 falls
all fall-
i love u team mates!!!(:

*PS: takkaire every1!
especialli sL n veRn-
both uR ankles veri easy get injured de
mus takkaire
we still nid u all on thurs!!
jiayou wors!!! (:

2005-05-20T21:01:00.000+08:00

dese few daes kinda happening laRhs
n oso da ppL ard me gave me lots of happiness
4 eg todae hors
after da 2.4km run
my cls gurLs n guys played bball tgt
jus veri faRnie laRhs!
chaihong mistook yusong 4 celest
n frm dat moment on yusong became celest
n has to act GAY!
jus like celest liddat lors!
damn faRnie!!
+ nat's continuous laughter
cnt stop de
as if she's gonna get out of breath soon liaox!
hahaha!! (:
soo practicalli da whole match we were jus laughing n laughing laRhs!!
n oso chaihong was dere doing mani silly tricks laRhs
he's a super big mankey manx!
anyway darren!
im fine okie??
dun worrie its jus da date dats not ritex 4 us
2 be playing in da same court
hahaha!!
n ohh yahs 1 more thing!!
i veri off todae!
i kip shooting n shooting during da match
jiu shi cnt get in da ball lors!
even frm my fav spot lehs
haix sianx`
den kj n dav was like kip telling me where to aim n stuff
dey're veri nice lehs
like dav hors he's not 3F de
but he's been realli helping us train alot lors!
thnkew david 4 all da comments hors!!
'gd try!'
'wahs zhun!'
hahaha! quite encouraging laRhs
he can realli be my encourager lors!-
n oso big thnkew 2 all 3F cls guys
4 always peiing us play ball
den at da same time giving us tips
especialli kj
whu's da 1st guy whu's willing 2 cum baQ on sat train us de
thnkew thnkew!!!
n all da guys whu hav provided entertainment 4 us
while we having training wors!
hahaha! (:
intercls realli made me more bonded 2 da cls
i love 3F
i realli do!!
we dun realli care if uR a guy/gurL
soo long as uR part of 3F
we'll help n tgt we provide all da fun any1 can hav!
3F HUAT AH!!
hahaha!!

anyway todae's 2.4km run
oso made me learn smthing
me celest n jess already sae we'll run tgt
n we told each other
if 1 of us cnt take it liaox
we'll hold each other's hand n run tgt
jus dun gif up
we realli did it-
its da promise we made 2 each other
half way thru jess cant take it anymore n stop
i stopped n went over 2 hold her hand
celest oso jogged slowli 2 wait 4 us
though she could hav ran much faster den us
at dat pt of time
i jus thot dats jus wat frens r 4 ya?
we stretch our hands 4ward 2 help
wen our frens wan 2 gif up
dis hand may seem nthing
but 2 dem it can jus mean soo much
our constant encouragement 4 each other
is da yuan2 qi4 dat kept us running
though da timing may not be veri gd
but we feel proud of ourselves
coz we didnt gif up
i love every single 1 of my frens!!(:

n summore todae ms low didnt teach anything
jus gave us a tok bout her personal experience
n wat she saed realli touched my heart
coz i noe i haven been studying hard
ive been slack
ive let down my parents
ive let down every1 whu believes in me-
i feel guilty at dat pt of time
i realli m
haix~

2005-05-17T18:25:00.000+08:00

sianx laRhs``
stupid weather's fot laRhs!
rain wat rain
make our intercls hav 2 postphone till tmL-
actualli at 1st
wen we noe da intercls has got 2 postphone
dats stupid irrtating ms tan wans 2 postphone it 2 thurs de
reason being she doesnt wan 2 stay baQ jus 4 our match
like wth lors!
otherwise she wans us 2 walkover
coz we cant hav match on thurs
got cip maRhs
she's jus soo freaking kb laRhs!
i hate her ever since ytd liaox
going aRd doing nthing
but jus screaming at ppL
thinking every1's got 2 listen 2 her
coz she's da person in charge of dis whole thing
wTf lors!
soo in da end vern dey all managed 2 ask mr chew
postphone all of todae's matches 2 tmL lors-
thank god manx!!

anyway we had our mapfa 5-items todae
my grp superb manx
suppose 2 be 7 ppl de
frm reg no.13-19 de
den in da end becum 4 of us onli
coz veRn junru normen n dom cnt take
1st station- sit n reach
wahs it totalli sux lors!
i cnt stretch laRhs
wen i jus push da thing down
my leg totalli gonna cramp liaox
coz ytd's match run too much liaox wors
soo mine was 36cm onli hahahaha!
2nd station- pull ups
it was quite okie laRhs
did 20 pull ups den mr tan jiu ask me stop liaox
coz got A liaox maRhs
but after dat my whole hand was practicalli shivering laRhs!
no more energy liaox
3rd station- shuttle run
did my shuttle run wif shuwen
actualli she's part of my motivation oso laRhs
coz i was thinking mus win her mus win her
den jus run as fast as a can lors!
hahaha!
soo i was quite happi wif my timing laRhs
10.5s!! yay!!
but i sumhow tink mstan press da stopwatch wrongly lors
coz i dun tink i was dat fast laRhs
4th station- sit ups
i did 40 baRhs
quite normal lors
nthing much 2 sae bout oso
hahaha!
5th station- standing broad jump
i tink i jump veri little onli lehs
175cm onli lors!
shuwen was pro manx!
she jump 180 liddat den i stun dio!
didnt noe she was soo gd de
hahaha!

last thing i wan sae is......
my results sux!
dunno which blood vessel of my mummy's
gonna burst wen she sees my report bk
i failed my a-maths laRhs!
wTh!

2005-05-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

yay!! whee``
im soo damn super happie todae laRhs!!
3F totalli rawkks all da way manx!
1st gurLs match- 3:45pm
[3F vs 3J]
our score is 50-6
1st half is da 5 of us shang chang
jiu shi me nat vern sL n jess-
it was quite cOoL lehs
we were pia
pia till we gonna get out of breath liaox
n oso dunno which idiot hit dao my specs
den veri xin ku lors!
but we were veri happie playing dat match!(:

den after dat is da guys soccer match-
[3F vs 3C]
it was a close fight
n da referee is angus lors!
dunno how 2 referee 1 laRhs
oso dun unds wat dis goal counted
dat goal not counted
wateva shit lors
make us all soo luan!
in da end da score is 2-2
soo got penalty kick
3c supporters were at 1 side
n we da other side
we were holding each other's hand real tight
hoping dat da guys will kick in lors
in da end we won!!
woots`!! (:

after dat was da gurl's match again
dis time is [3F vs 3B]
we were actualli kinda scared of dis match lehs
coz got mani mani tall gurls
n dey oso veri zhun de!
but we won dem 24-2
soo we were veri happie wors!(:
den we started our match at 6+
coz everything was delayed by alot alot
soo we fin our match veri late bout 7 liddat

tmL still got match at 4:15pm
[3F vs 3A]
shall let yuan da rest of da players play more often
instead of just da 6 of us [including da 3 bballers]
3F jiayou wors!!

ohh yahs 4get add on smthing
jus now i was toking 2 celest on9
den she saed smthing damn encouraging lehs
i was soo shock she was da 1 whu saed it lors!!
she sae:
'losing is veri common in all matches de
win really dat impt meh?
i think we jus play as a cls
becum mere unity n bond
aint dat wats most impt?'
i cant believe she actualli saed dat lors!
she's always been soo super niaox laRhs
such sentimental stuff she oso noe how 2 sae de wors!
hrmms``
zhen1 ren2 bu2 lou4 xiang4!!!
hahahaha!!

2005-05-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

im scared
not nervous-
jus afraid to let u all down
coz i tink im not gd enuff-
i jus dun hav da confidence in myself
my doubts 4 myself is confirmed
after playing todae-
aRghh!
but wateva da case
i'Ll still try harder
i'Ll work wif da team
as a cls
coz we wan 2 prove dat
though we're 1 of da slackest cls
we still hav da special bond within us
n dat can be proved thru our passion
our willingness 2 pia tgt
our enthu level-
we jus dun wan 2 get look down upon
soo i'll try harder 3F! (:
thankew nat n veRn 4 da constant encouragement!!
wen im real depress
u aLl rawkk!!(:

n ohh yahs
i failed my geog overall-
like wtf
its not i nvr study lors
its jus wateva i study nvr cum out de laRhs
bloody hell-
mrs ho saed i broke her record
none of her students fail geog b4 de
geog is my core n yet i failed it
dno wats gonna happen manx
soo sianx diaox-

2005-04-28T17:56:00.000+08:00

tink i veri long nvr blog liaox leR wors!
ohh yahs shall tok bout ytd's debate in cls-
its bout da building of casino in s'pore
mus state da pros n cons de
dere's da opposition party n da proposition party
debators of opposition party:
Dick [1st speaker]
Randall [2nd speaker]
Verine [3rd speaker]
JunRu [Last speaker]
debators of proposition party:
Beverley [1st speaker]
Yuan [2nd speaker]
Normen [3rd speaker]
ChaiHong [Last speaker]
dere's oso da panel of judges:
-yusong
-weixuan
-daniel
-rachel
-celest
-shuwen
damn farnie manx da whole thing!!
*ohh yahs n i support da opposition party de*
had a great time being da audience
looking at dem 'shoot' each other wif their arguments!
den veRn veri cute
tink she super ji dong den she tok lyk machine gun liddat
every1 was like luffing at her lors!
yusong summore sae 'final warning! tok slowly!'
damn cute laRhs da debating session!!
lucki i wasnt 1 of da speakers manx
i enjoy jus being an audience
dunnid take down any notes
dunnid to listen every details da other party sae
dunnid waste my breath 'shooting' each other
suddenli realise smtimes its gd jus being a commoner-
den da debating quite interesting oso
as in most of da debators tried pouring out their pts
except dick n beverley laRhs
both 1st speakers den nthing to sae after saeing their pts
soo not bad experience wors!!
everything went on smoothly laRhs
n wen it's da audience's turn to ask any party qns ritex
daniel asked a qn
nnnnnn.....
veRn ansed smthing
which makes her supporting da stand 4 da proposition party!!
den she fin wat she sae
she cai 'ohh-ohh shit!'
she den sat down!
soo damn faRnie lors!!
she too jing zhang liaox
den dunno wat she toking bout oso leR lors!
hahahaha!! :)
in da end da panel of judges discuss discuss
n yusong was da 1 announcing da winning party
da proposition party won da debate!!
*claps claps*
n da best speaker is.......
chaihong!!!
actualli i thot its gonna be veRn/randall de lors
but da reason dey gif is dat
randall ans mani of da qns but he contradicts himself
n veRn is coz she toks way too fast
n oso of da last sentence she sae
whereby she stated her stand wrongly!
soo da winning members were given a coca-cola correction tape!
hahahaha!! :)

n todae was painting da cls after sch
soolin n shanshan went 2 da logistics thing
n dey got a booklet wif da grps
soo i in grp 3!!
wif shanshan koon n wenhua!!
n da ppL i noe still got iris LiLi wenwen!!
ohh manx me n wenwen same grp sure die de lors!
da camp will be in a chaos state manx!
we 2 tgt sure veri chao n veri siaox de!!

2005-04-23T18:27:00.000+08:00

ohh yahs
4get blog bout wat happen todae
hahahaha!!
okie soo todae is 3F's painting day laRhs!!
we arranged to start painting at 9am de
but i woke up late n reached dere bout 10am liddat
actualli i was kinda shock to see soo mani ppL dere laRhs
as in i dint expect sum guys 2 be soo enthu de
like jinjun!!
soo yeah 3F is united manx!
sOo cOoL``-
den we move all tables n chairs outside
n started painting da whole cls orange
painting is sOo fun laRhs!!
naT wans 2 be a painter nxt time!! =)
but wif her skills at dis standard hors
hrmms``can laRhs
BUT jus nid more practice den others lors
hahaha! =P
every1 was veri co-operative
clean wall every1 oso got clean
painting every1 oso got paint
n da cls was kinda in a mess laRhs
wif drips of orange paint all over da floor
n we paint dao da floor n window panes
n oso our shirts dio paint oso laRhs!
but still veri fun lors!
da painting process had 2 stop coz we run out of paint liaox
soo tmL shall ask daddy bring more paint home ler
after dat da guys went 2 plae lan
n we went 2 play bball+soccer+vball[wif da soccer ball]
super hot laRhs da sun!!
chao dar already lors!
summore plae 4 quite long
den we still order canadian pizza
den soo scared cher will see us lors
coz we not suppose 2 be in da sch at dis hr leR
cont playing den till bout 4 liddat cai reach home

2005-04-23T17:25:00.000+08:00

im veri veri happi worx!!
dis wk can be saed as veri fulfiling
n oso veri busy de
frm mondae - fridae
everydae is jus co practices
even after our afternoon lessons
we had 2 rush for da final practices
we hav worked haRd-
we tried our veri best-
we put all our emotions in-
jus to win in da syf on fridae
on thursdae evening after our practice
tzeshan gave us a big board wif all our seniors' encouragements
honestly we r veri veri touched
especialli wen i read wat primero wrote
'special sorris to sizhao,kelvin,kokjun,wenwen n keely
sorri if ive not been a veri gd senior
blah blah blah...'
we jus simply feel bad
coz we dint treasure such a senior at all
da small little things dat dey did
we jus take dem 4 granted
but it has always been a tradition 4 dhsco
dat all previous yrs seniors will cum baQ 2 help us
either in performances or syf practices
den after dat i went 2 pp wif wenwen
buy stuff 4 syf de
went to swensen's n tok 4 quite long
after dat wen we bout to go baQ
saw kj n his frens oso boarding da same bus!
LOL!!

finaLli our 'Big Day' came-
i wasnt anxious or excited or wateva
coz i couldnt find my passion 4 co all along
i rmBed da times wen i pon 4 a whole 2mths
i rmbed da slacking moments
aLl dese ran thru my mind in da morning wen i woke up
we left cls at ard 9am
went 4 practise till 12+
den got ready to set off
as usual all seniors came baQ 2 help out again
wen i reach dere i was all ready 2 gif my best
jus 1 gd shot!
da 1st song 'xin1 kong1'
was gd wif our emotions all in it
but da 2nd song
we'Re disappointed-
we made 2 major mistakes
but da tension we wanted 2 create was dere
den i received mani smses frm seniors saying we did well
but i noe it's jus comforting
after dat we went to watch chong hua sec sch perform
heard dat dey trained 4yrs jus to compete wif us
dey R veRi gD i mus sae!
da performers r lyk robots damn tidy laRhs
we were even more down after dat-
on da way baQ 2 sch me n wenwen hardly tok
in da LT waiting for da results we prayed-
though we may be slackest in da whole CO
though we may seem as if we hated CO
da hard work every1 put in suddenly jus ran thru our minds
we want CO to win
we want da honourable history of dhsco to cont-
finalli 6pm arrived
da results were announced 1 by 1
'.... RGS-gold, Chong Hwa-gold....'
Duman High Sch......
GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!
ohh my god!!
da happiness at dat time is beyond description
is smthing i hav nvr experienced b4
dis is da 1st time i cried of happiness
i m touched
no1 n nthing has eva let me cry of happines b4
we'Ve finalli not let dhsco down
wenwen cried too
mani ppL cried
ppL in da CO jus hugged each other
either u noe or dunno each other
jus pure comfort n frenship
i finalli unds da unity in da entire CO
n dats wat brought us tgt
defeating other hundreds of schs
wif our unity n hard work-
dhsco rockss!!!

2005-04-14T17:34:00.000+08:00

[[-a hope; sure to be dashed-*]]

she asked him,
if she wus preety ;
he said no.
she asked him
if he wud wana be wiv her furevr ;
he said no.
she asked him
if he liked her ;
he said no.
she then asked him,
if she were to leave, wud he cry ;
and once agn, he replied wiv a no.
she had heard enough.
as she walked away,
tears streamg down her face ;
the boy grabbed her arm and said :
yu aint preety; yor beautiful.
i dont wana be wiv yu furevr;
i NEED tu be wiv yu furevr.
i dont LIKE yu; i LOVE yu.
and i wudnt cry if yu walked away; i'd die ..

i read dis posted shara in frenster bulletin
i was touched`
most of shara's posts nvr fail to move me
jus like dis 1-
but can all dese happen in reality??
dunno perhaps baRhs-

mani things happen recently
to ppL ard me n stuff
kinda emotional issues de
me n jess's philosophies!
-once da 1st breakup is saed
de following up patches r jus 4 short-[mine!]
-once one realli meets 1st true love
it is veri hard to get out of it
even if one may hav umpteen relationships
dey r jus substitutions-[jess's!]
but dese r jus wat we tink
da reality may not be likewise de
it all depends on each n every1 out dere-
ppL always ask
is true luRve realli DAT hard to get out?
i tink soo baRhs
once one realli gets committed to sum1 or a rLs
its like falling into a well
an evalasting 1
no matter how hard u try to climb out of it
u jus cant
u get jus too tired of trying dat u decide to gif up climbing
in da end u'Ll jus fall deeper n deeper-
how mani in dis wurL can hav dis determination
to fin their climb up da well??
how mani can be soo sure
dat even if u were bout to be out of it
u will not fall into it again??
mani r jus liddat-
even if she n dis 'special guy' may not hav started a rLs
but da feelings hav always been soo strong
n everytime he toks to her
she jus falls deeper
coz she wans him n onLi him
soo wat if she's found a substitution?
soo wat if she tries to tell herself not 2 tink bout it?
can she eventualli succeed leaving his wurL??
aLl she's doing is deceiving herself
living in a wurL of her own
n wats gonna happen wen she gets baQ to da reality
da real wurL?
aint she gonna find out bout her deep down feelings
n fall in lurve wif him AGAIN
hurting herself in da end??
dats da cruel fact-
but eventualli we'Ll hav 2 face it
smthing we cant run away frm
soo instead of being soo pessimistic of everything
soo sad bout da present lyfe
y not look ahead wif a sun in uR heart?
share da sunshine wif others
whu realli care 4 u deep down in their hearts-

*PS: not referring to any1 in particular- =)

2005-04-13T16:02:00.000+08:00

woohOo~
jus testing out my bLog!!
hees``

2005-04-11T19:46:00.000+08:00

whoo`
super long nvr blog liaox leR lo
suddenly got dis inspiration 2 blog again
coz of my last nitex dream!!
hahahax!!
last nitex was veri 'dreamy' lors
i dunno how mani dreams i had lehs
1st 1 is dis tsunami thing-
coz ytd saw da news toking bout wat s'pore got earthquake maRhs
den jiu dunno y oso dreamt of dis
listen aRhs-
it goes liddat
1dae me my daddy mummyn meix meix+my dis aunt hors
went to dis temple to pray laRhs
dere got mani mani ppL
den lyk u noe wen u reach dere
jiu got dis stairs to walk up
den opp side got another stairs to walk down de maRhs
soo den we were happily praying laRhs
suddenly!!
dere's dis super big wave cuming in our direction
ppL r screaming everywhere
can imagine how chaotic it is ritex?!
daddy grabbed my hand
n mummy grabbed my meix meix hand
my aunt followed behind
we jus kept running down de stairs
da whole place was jus flooded
wen i turn baQ to check dat my family's okie
i saw my mummy using da phone
she was calling my maid at home
to ask her to pour dis 'tsunami powder' over da floor
soo dat da wave wun get into da hse
acting lyk a protection liddat laRhs!!
den me n my daddy quickly run to da car
to pour 'tsunami powder' over it
soo dat we can drive thru da wave unlyk others whu r still struggling
i noe its damn spas n unbelievable laRhs
but i wake up tinking its super faRnie lors!!
den todae i told nat n celest bout it
dey sae i still super childish lors!!
as if i can control my dream liddat laRhs
dis is how my dream cums bout maRhs
not my fot noe! hahahax!! =)

den da 2nd 1-
oso veri spas de
me wenwen n siyuan r in a cls [which is lyk not true]
den we gonna hav a test soon
siyuan all of a sudden cum over tell me
'eh keely we all 3 not in syf lehs'
den i was lyk 'orh okie'
though i was lyk thinking
-y mus u tell me now??
jus ritex b4 da test??
not in syf means no pts lehs
den o-levels how?
cnt minus off 2pts liaox
shit-
dis was wat i thot of in da dream lors
den i jiu wake up leR
its 4 in da morning
i still lie down thinking
if all dat was a dream anot?
or did it happen n im jus recalling??
still in a blur state u see-
den i cont slping leR
soo dats kinda lame laRhs
im not stress over syf or wat lors
jus dunno y dream of dis laRhs!!
but its quite fun dreaming- hees`` =)

2005-04-01T19:51:00.000+08:00

[[*sumthings r jus betta not known
kept in da dark
4eva-
sumthings r jus sOo heartbreaking
let it be be a secret
4eva-]]
soo y isit dat wen we noe
smthing may jus make us sad
4 mebbe da whole dae
or even a lifetime
we still go aRd asking
carrying a hope dat we'Ll get to noe it
perhaps accidentalli?-
R we asking jus 4 da sake of asking?
or r we asking coz of our human nature - curiosity?
life's suppose 2 be a time of fun
a period of happiness
n wen we noe dat smthing's gonna make us sad
jus let it go
dun pursue anymore
wats da use?
trying uR best 2 find out
n den getting hurt in da end?
its realli not worth it
soo jus let it be kept as a secret 4eva-
dats y ppL always sae sha ppL r 4eva da happiest
y is dat sOo??
coz dey dun care bout everything n anything
dey dun gif a damn
bout wat ppL do or say
dey dun question anything
n dats da onLi way out of misery-
u cant deny dat every1 in dis wurL
has a secret deep down in their heart
dat dey wish no1 would dig it out
coz dey noe dis big top secret
may hurt sum ppL ard dem-

whoa``
jus wrote a whole load of truth crap
hahax!
anyway todae's speech dae sOo no sch!!
yay`! no nid wake up early
but still nid go 4 co till 12+
den after dat went 2 bugis wif wen2, 'ahbei' n 'aLien'
me n wen2 on shopping spree manx!
coz we nid buy things
soo we spend super long dere lors
den think both 'ahbei' n 'alien' veri sianx liaox
hees`` sorri!!
but in da end we bot wat we wanted leR
soo we veri happi hees``
den we jiu go 'alien' hse plae
got 3 doggies!!
1 daddy 1 mummy n 1 baby
but all kinda smelly
coz lazy 'alien' rarely bathe dem lors!
still tink bombom cutest manx
though kinda smelly i still plae n carry it
or else i sure veri sianx dere de lors
but da dog kinda stupid laRhs
ask her 2 come over she dunno how 2 de lors
onLi kip hiding
sOo shy de lors!
ohh yahs
i tink alien's younger bro looks mush shuaier den him lors!
[opps im mean!]
but its da fact laRhs
he looks kinda like kianggay

woots!!
im super hyper now!!
vki- bout 3 half more hrs n dats uR big dae!!
i'Ll stae up till 12 todae
2 wish u happi bdae n most imptly....
smthing else laRhs!! hees`` =)

2005-03-31T17:10:00.000+08:00

wahs sianx-
got cot by kiw AGAIN!!
while going baQ 2 cls after pe
veRn heng lors
actualli she walking wif me in front de
allison jiu passby dey jiu went down again tgt
i was wif da other geRs laRhs
den kiw at 1s is cot yuan n shandy n sL de
den i walk past see he nvr call me
me n jess jiu quickly run away
thot we safe liaox leR maRhs
though i nOe my socks veri short n shirt is tucked out
den he jiu ask naT 2 call me lors
lyk wat shit!!
super suay lors!!
but todae get cot still not as angry as wen i got cot alone
oso dunno y laRhs
but da 5 of us aLl tink todae get cot still not veri bs
mebbe coz he added a little humour to his pep tok??
veRi faRnie lors-
he sae he once brought bout 23 pupils go hongkong
den wen dey reach dere got 1 dhs kid tell him got a veri cOoL guy
"wah! wo3 kan4 ta1 zhen1 de4 hen3 cOoL!
tou2 fa3 hen3 cOoL hai2 dai4 zhe4 mo4 jing4!
chuan1 zhe4 feng1 yi1 ling3 zi4 hai2 zhan4 zhe4 de4!"
[kiw open his eyes till big big
den stick his hands into his pockets
doing da actions lyk admire dat guy alot liddat lors!!]
we see him sae till sOo ji dong
we oso feel lyk luffing leR lors!
but we jus u nOe bie1 zu4-
den he jiu cont saeing he tried to look 4 dat guy da nxt dae
wen every1's in their own sch uniform
he sae he cant recognise him anymore
but he still rmB da guy sitting beside him
sOo da 'shuai ge' has becum a toot kia leR!!
den he jiu sae wat he told da guy he admire him alot
bLah bLah bLaH``
soo he sae we mus be lyk da 'shuai ge'
in sch jus follow da sch ruLes
wen we outside we how dian1 he oso dun care
sOo we had pep tok frm him 4 lyk 2 whole periods lors!
we hav 2 buy dhs socks frm him AGAIN lors-
dis is lyk my 3rd pair liaox leR lo
den he ask each of our names maRhs
wen he ask dao me hors
"wo yi3 jing1 zua1 ni3 hen3 duo1 ci4 leR
ke3 shi4 wo3 hai2 shi4 yao4 wen4 ni3 jiao4 she3 me4 ming2"
i was trying 2 not luff laRhs!
dun u tink its super faRnie
coz its lyk he jus called my name wen he giving lecture
now still ask me 4 my name!! -.-
den he sae 1 whole load of crap bout my name laRhs
blah blah bLah``

but hors 1 thing i feel veRi bad is mR koh saw us get cot lors!
actualli b4 dat we were still saying
we not scared getting scolded by kiw laRhs
jus scared he'Ll go tell nigelkoh
nigelkoh's gonna be sOo disappointed in us laRhs
i mean lyk he's been realli nice 2 us lors
den tink our cls lyk veri pai liddat
everytime got ppL get cot
summore mani cheRs complain bout 3F
but he realli gif us mani mani chances lors
jus now wen we having lecture frm kiw
he's standing at da end other end staring at us lors
he jus look sOo disappointed laRhs
sL jiu tuck on my skirt n i tuck naT's skirt
we were lyk wtf!
sorri!! =P

2005-03-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

im still super pissed wif u OKIE!!
uRghh!
its already been lyk sOo long
but still i cant tahan uR wateva behaviour laRhs!
da prob wif u is:
uR acting too da jia da!
can u be more sensitive bout ppL's feelings??
can u tell wen i dun lyk u??
can u tell wen im super bs u??
stop acting lyk its nobody's business!
ohh yahs 1 more thing`
stop going aRd telling ppL bout my stuff
sOo as 2 gain popularity okie!=P

blogging is total shuangness manx!
i fa xie leR!
thanxx nat 4 asking me 2 blog it out!!
woohoo!!

anyway i tink mR koh rox lehs
oOox but i veri tired
tmL zai cont my tribute! =)

2005-03-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

YoU!!
im pissed-
can u tell dat im jus pissed off wif u??
stop going aRd telling ppL can?
frigging thing``
n YoU!!
stop toking in dat tone hors
i dun lyk it!
happi??
oOox im aP
but i am lors
sOo wateva-

woohoo!
i feel sOo songx after letting everything out
coz im realli super aP after sch
anyway todae sum1 ask me dis qn
[do u eva believe in fairy tales?]
fairy tales-
sum ppL sae dey arent reaL
but i still believe dat
happi endings lyk dose in fairy tales do exist
lyk ppL in luv get 2 be tgt in da end
n happi endings lyk such laRhs-
n iVe always wiished dat my lyfe will be lyk dat of a fairy tale
simple but swt
may not sound realistic
but whu cares
it will onLi happen in my very own wurL
wif a few other impt characters involved
sOo i'Ll jus cont dreaming-
u can sae i m crazy or childish
wateva-
but hors i onLi lyk 2 watch happi ending show
sad ending de jus get out of my way
i dun lyk!!
hees`` =P

fallen reaL deep...
deep...
deep...

2005-03-18T13:30:00.000+08:00

whiee``
im baQ!!!
super duper happi nehs
but wen i came baQ ritex
i quite she3 bu4 de2 oso laRhs
spent 1wk over dere maRhs
no matter wat will hav sum kinda feelings de
wateva!
im baQ n im happi 2 see da ppL here!!
+ bombom oso =)

1st daE [11032005]
spent 10+ hrs in da bus doing nthing
but slping lors!
super sianx n tired de lehs
wakaox`
dey can lyk take flight dere de maRhs
make us whole body feel sOo numb n restless manx
nvR take bus 4 sOo sOo long b4 de lors
tink now shd hav bus-phobia liaox leR lo
hees``
but dere's smthing 4 me to do in da bus
make me not sOo sianx diaox
though its short but its meaningful
still hav it wif me =)
den once we got dere we jiu go to our hotel leR
da place dere quite ulu
but da hotel was not bad
me n wen2 rm veRi big lors!
but we dun lyk it
make us feel sOo empty liddat
quite scary maRhs
sOo we shifted our beds beside each other's
at 1 corner
sOo we were slping beside each other
easier to tok oso maRhs
we tok 4 quite long
bout mani mani stuff
i found out smthing n i cant help but kip rolling on da bed
it's too faRnie tOo unpredicted!! =)
den i called my mummy
she cried on da phone again
haix``
suddenly jus felt veRi bad
n realised how much i mean 2 her lors
she veri dan xin i dunno how 2 takkaire of myself
dan xin i'Ll not eat properly n hav gastric pain
i'Ll take gd gd care of myself de``

2nd daE [12032005]
shopping daE!!
i 4got wat happened but shopping
hees``
da penang shopping centre was kinda big
given 4 hrs to shop baRhs
veri songx!
went tgt wif 3seniors
1 of dem having a bittergourd face okie
im damn qigek
he's damn wat lors
jus coz of dis geR he lyks but she dun lyk him
ask him 2 go shopping wif her
but in da end he came wif us maRhs
den he sOo scared she'Ll angry wif him lors
i mean its lyk
wth jus coZ of dat he's not happi?
sOo not man ritex?!
wateva laRhs!
wen2 spend muny like water flow laRhs!
wahs onLi dis shopping trip she jiu spend lyk 230bucks liaox??
den she's going ard asking ppL to lend her muny laRhs
veRi siaox de lehs she
everything oso wan buy
no use de oso wan aiyo``
i bought quite alot of stuff too
but at least it's lesser den her jiu shi leR
we slp quite early coZ tired leR

3rd daE [13032005]
performance dae!
sianx laRhs but it was quite fun
da audience veRi re4 qing2
after performance jiu ask 4 autograph n take pics
damn seh!!
feel lyk sum superstar liddat
hees``
im childish! =)

4th daE [14032005]
off to genting!!
took cable car frm da foot to the peak
it was damn seh!
da fog/clouds look lyk cream
but damn chaotic manx in da cable car!!
took it wif wen2 punkeat jonathan primero ch n hm
wahs dey damn chao lehs
aLl thanxx to primero n hm
i hate u aLl manx!
sOo irritating
aRgh!!
stop da nonsense in cls aRhs
or uR gonna be dead manx hm!!
den we went shopping
but b4 dat we wen 2 our hotel rms
super small but veri cosy
had a veri veri bad mood swingin da afternoon
hm irritated me n summore smthing made me real disappointed
toking on da phone den bout to cry liaox lors
my seniors saw me walking
den dey sae i lyk veri scared or smthing liddat
ate honeydew onLi den jiu go shopping
feel sOo damn pissed
den saw dis brochure on haunted hse
decided 2 go dere hav a big scream
sOo went wif kiang gay ch n sum other geRs laRhs
walking rite behind kg lors
wth super daRk inside laRhs can!
i was damn scared
but still turned behind 2 check dat every1's okie
n i saw smthing cutex!! =)
sOo romantic--
den at da end of da thing hors
wen im out liaox heard da ppL behind me screaming
sOo i look in again
n saw dis 'monster' laRhs
n i call it 2 cum out lors!
i dunno y i did dat but jus thot it's gonna be fun?
den it came out n i run away
hahahahahaha =)
sOo we took mani mani pics n it's a fun dae baRh
at nitex den my unhappiness in da morning aLl solved leR
baQ to my happI souL again!! hees``

5th daE [15032005]
headed for KL!
shopping again!!
n we were given onLi 1hr lors
sOo me n wen2 run ard da whole shopping centre lors
nvm can lose wt hees``
den at nite we went 2 our hotel rms
not bad laRhs
smthing veri scary happen
we were lyk packing our stuff ritex
den suddenly sum1 knock our door veri loudly lehs
den i open it but saw nobody
jus heard footsteps
den 2nd time knock again
i ran 2 da door n open it
nobody again
but dis time no footsteps nthing jus plain silence
thot mus be prank laRhs
sOo boliaox 1`
i jiu go bathe liaox
dat person knocked our door again n wen2 opened it
had water parade after dat
n we went ard asking whu actualli knocked our door laRhs
but no1 did lors
sOo dis irritating junda told us bout a ghost story
sae wat wen our door is knocked 3times
da 3rd time betta not open
coZ da ghost spirit may jus cum in
wahs! den we sia dao lors!
coZ jus nice 3 time maRhs!!
den we super scared lehs
da seniors ask us slp wif dem lors
den we oso go down wif dem to wait 4 dose chers
wif our pillow summore!
sOo quite diu lian laRhs
but whu cares rite? at dat time scared dao liddat liaox
den kinda chaotic at dat time laRhs
every1 asking wats wrong
den suddenly our other 2seniors ask us go in their rm
n tell us its actualli dem lors!!
wth!
make us sOo scared 4 nthing!
feel lyk killing dem laRhs aRgh!!

6th daE [16032005]
performance dae again!
although audience not as re4 qing2
but we still veri happi
coZ its our final performance
n we had mcdonalds 4 dinner!!
dis is da 1st time i sOo happi eating mac lors
hees``
sOo since its our last dae dere leR
we had no curfew
n we took pics wif every1 including da principal in da conference rm!!
quite fun laRhs``
sOo we nvr slp da whole nite lehs
wen 2 my senior's rm play
den we played mahjong cards at 1st
but da security guard sae got ppL complainsae we veRi noisy
da principal cum oso
coZ not onLi our rm dio complain
mani others oso got
dey still sae wat our sch students
made prank calls
den sae wat ppL got deep breathing sounds
lyk wth lors!!
cant it be other ppL??
den we jiu tok baQ n stuff laRhs
principal jiu sae he dunnid us 2 disperse jus lower down our volumes
he sOo nice lors!
sOo we off all da lights n told ghost stories
da atmosphere quite gd lehs
den mostly is tok bout our sch ghost stories maRhs
sOo veRi scary lors
thinking bout it still got goosebumps manx
fin ghost stories leR jiu played truth/dare
wahs damn spastic!
at 1st all play truth de
den ask veri wierd qns laRhs!
lyk gif u 3 guys' names
den ask u 2 choose whu to shoot, marry/sex
i dun even noe how 2 ans lors!!
den i took a nap
n dey jus wake me up laRhs
sOo jus realised dey change da thing to dare?
n i was involved in 1 of their 'nice' dares!
sOo innocent lors!!
make me sOo damn paiseh
but wateva laRhs
play play onLi maRhs``
sOo we played till daybreak
jiu go down 4 breakfast tgt leR

7th daE [17032005]
*HomE swT hoMe!!--

2005-03-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

wow``
things R realli getting kinda complicating
hav to consider wat others think
consider bout da consequences
n mani mani stuff
but im jus contented wif da way life is
wif wateva i hav wif me--

tmL got performance
den i dunno whether its gonna be a flop nots
coZ on stage i confirm kip luffing de
i dunno y
it's not veri faRnie laRhs
but i dun feel gd on stage de
smthing jus tends to tickle me u see
sOo my dear frens
if uR gg tmL hors
dun kip staring at me hors
coZ i'Ll feel xtra nervous de lors!! =)

Eeyer!
i dun feel lyk blogging
coZ i scared i sae wrong stuff
aRgh!!
shall cont another dae
hees``

2005-03-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

whiee``
dis is da 2nd entry of [02032005]
im super duper happi!!
dun ask me y
coZ i wun tell u
n happi doesnt nid a reason de u nOe
everything is sOo beautiful now!!
=)

2005-03-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

aRgh!!
todae's physics test was a total disaster!!
i didnt noe how 2 do all da qns
except 4 dose calculations lors!
confirm fail liaox leR laRh
but wateva``
over liaox jiu dun go think bout it leR`

todae sum1 told me smthing dat made me think alot
leT me ask u guys
if u lyk sum1 n dat sum1 confess 2 u 1dae
will u accept him?
even if u noe dis may affect his studies or smthing?
my dis fren rejected da person she lyks
coz she noe dis will affect his studies
do u call dis foolish/wei2 da4??
im not sure too``
but i jus tink dat
since now dat u noe he lyks u
n da fact dat u lyk him too
y not jus accept?
as in dats wat having a crush is 4 ritex?
u lyk sum1 hoping dat 1dae he'Ll fall 4 u too
hearing uR crush's confession 4 u
is da swtest thing u can eva hear in uR life
rejection makes da guy sad
n u having to cheat ur feelings wun feel gd too
sOo y bother make both of u unhappi??
but still
i tink she's wei3 da4!
dats wat we call 'true love'*

if dis world isnt wat it is todae
as in ppL whu r suppose 2 be tgt
jus hav their eyes on da other party
n not giving their feelings away lyk water flow
isnt it gonna be sOo wonderful??
relationships wun be ruin by any 3rd party
no1 will fall in luv wif sOo mani ppL at 1 time
dere will definitely not be sOo mani complications
isnt every1's life gonna be simpler??
da whole heart belonging to jus 1 special person
feels great
sOo y mus god make things liddat?
to add colours n excitement to our lives?
i guess sOo``
i believe god made ppL as pairs
separating dem into 2 parts of da world
dey r made jus rite 4 each other
n it's now up to dem to look 4 their other halves
onLi wen dey found their [him/her]
their lives will den be considered complete``
=)

2005-02-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

hrmms``
todae is da last dae mrs mg is our form cheR leR
ever since da 1st dae she stepped into our class
we gave her nthing but noises
den even todae
though we nOe it's gonna be her last dae wif us
we still dun wan 2 do da class mission dong dong lors
gonna drive her crazy``
den we gers at da end of lesson decided to write a 'card'
to her wif all our names inside baRh
we gave her
n heard frm veRn dey all sae she got tears in her eyes?
yeah` sOo dis is to mrs ng-
though we may make u angry often
though we can be sOo annoying in uR class
though we may seem we bo chap bout everything
3F mus 4eva remain in uR heart
coZ u will 4eva be remembered in ours
as da caring cher whu helped shuwen take attendence
da onLi cher whu's willing to make such sacrifices
da cheR whu gave us da freedom we wan!
we saw da sincerity within u
to try to make da class united as 1
to make da class more attentive
everything uVe done 4 da class
is appreciated
but we jus dunno how 2 ecpress our gratitude 4 u
thnkew 4 everything uVe done`
we love ya!! =)

iVe nvr lyked to see dis kinda scenario
whereby ppL bid farewell wif each other
sOo heartwrenching``
make me oso feel lyk tearing liaox`

vern wans to tell [him]
n i wan to tell [u] too
sumtimes i hate u
4 making me fall in luv again
but i cant bear to
coz uve already occupied a place in my heart
i dun wan to tell u my feelings
coz i dun wan 2 get hurt
i noe how slim da chances r
we shd jus be frens
=)

2005-02-27T11:53:00.000+08:00

wheEeE~
im sOo sOo happi!!
ytd was realli fun manx!
although new yr over liaox
but still da new yr mood still lingers within da family
we had steamboat n lao1 yusheng again!!
dis is like da 6th time?!
but i lyk it
besides new yr jiu no other time can lao yusheng liaox
sOo after steamboat we take pics
as in mani pics``
den wen we taking photos
bom bom kip cuming in
bark at us 2 take pic wif her lors!!
summore she got wear da little baby's new yr skirt
sOo she veri ai mei oso laRhs!

our family has dis routine of u noe
gua4ing ang baos of ranging frm 108 bucks to 8bucks
on da ying2 niu3 laRh
but b4 choosing our ang baos
each n every1 of us will hav 2 do an act
lyk hrmms``
act bai2chi1
pole dancing [which my meis got it!!]
n wear a red colour wig + da sticky bra + a ger's sexy top
[specialli decorated 4 my daddy!=)]
n i shant sae wat i got
hees`` =)
n in da end i chose da ang bao wif 58 bucks de!!
nubbad nubbad!
sOo da whole nite we were luffing n playing
den todae wen i wake up i got no voice liaox`` -.-

ohh``
i jus realise sum1 deleted her bLog!
aLl thanxx 2 u guys laRh
taG her board until liddat!
she bui da han delete it liaox``
now no fun leR lo! =)

2005-02-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

thnkew aLl my dear frens!!
thnkew 4 aLl da guan xin``
i now realli mei shi leR lo
everything's calm n peaceful now
realli hav 2 thank [u] 4 being dere 4 me
uR seriousli a nice FREN!!

anyway dere R sum things i nid 2 clarify
1stly``
i jus sorted out i dun lyk him
coz i dun feel anything
no faster heartbeat
nthing``
is jus pure frenship
sOo im quite happi 2 realise dat myself
coz i dun wan 2 fall in luv again! =)

2ndly``
i noe whu u R
oR mebbe im jus not sure
if it's realli u
dere's smthing i wan 2 take dis chance to tell u
dere's a gurL out dere whu lyks u
be more attentive to da ppl ard u
it aint dat diff to spot
she's rite 4 u`
go 4 her if u wan to
dis is aLl i wan 2 sae--

ppL!!!!
ppL stop niaoing bout us!!!!
i dun feel gD bout it
i noe he dun feel gD too``
coZ i saw it
but i'D rather not say anything
sOo bai4 tuo1 bai4 tuo1 aRh!! =)

2005-02-22T16:02:00.000+08:00

can any1 tell me wen will i hav da courage to leave home??

mummy:
frm pri 1 to 6
uVe been da 1 deciding every part of my life 4 me
everything
i nid a life
i realli m suffocating
wen i came into sec 1
i den realise wat i realli wan in my life
i nid sum [freedom]
to u i may hav changed alot
frm da gurL whu cum home rite after sch
to sum1 beyond description
i noe iVe changed too
but its jus part n parcel of growing up
u may find i dun listen 2 u much
its coz iVe grown up
n iVe my own rights
i do wat i tink is rite
pLs gif me my own space``

i try to pLs u in every way
u once told me
u wish 2 hav a daughter whu could get into dhs
jiex didnt get in
n u put aLl uR hopes on me
i dun wish 2 disappoint u
though dat wasnt my choice
sOo i studied xtra hard 4 psle
n i got in`
but now u wan me 2 get into vjc 4 o's
i cnt take it anymore
i'd rather not be da brilliant gurL in uR heart
i nOe my own ability
getting into vj is beyond my ability
pLs dun force me
n kip rattling dat into my ear
da more i hear dat
da more i feel bad towards u
4 not helping u fulfil uR wish``
aLl i can sae is im a great disappointment 2 u
im born into dis wurL as a useless bum
not gd in studies
not gd in everything``

daddy:
uVe always been sOo nice 2 us
nvr eva scolded or hit us
though u Noe iVe nvr settled down eva since sec 1
u still didnt mention a word about it
in a hope dat i'Ll understand 1dae
jus now hearing uR voice
hearing wat u sae
i teared on da phone
i wanted 2 hold it baQ
but i couldnt
i cant 4gif myself 4 letting u down
again n again`
iVe disappoint u greatly
im sorri daddy``

fuck off u bitch!

all dese while i thot u R my best tuition cher

sum1 whu i look upon as a fren

sum1 i tok 2 wen im sad

but i didnt expect u

to say all dat 2 my mother

just 2 hold on 2 dis job

dun worri i wun sack u 4 dat

i jus wan u 2 rmB i'Ll hate u aLl my life

stay away frm me

bitch!!

2005-02-17T16:31:00.000+08:00

hrmms``
veRn cheer up okie?
though i dunno wat exactly happen
n u didnt tell me
i tynk i basicalli noe wats happening leR baRh
jus let dem cooL down n sort things out demselves kss?
dun tire uRself out
im sure dey will be fine after sum time de
jus cheeR up kss?!
tynk +ve!!=))

hais``
love makes my life compliacted
now even me myself is not sure
if it's u or u?
tynk da closer i get 2 u
da greater da feeling grows
n i dun like dis feeling
it sux!
i dun wishh 2 go baQ 2 [square 1]
where i 1st started
it's bad enuff an experience 4 me
spare me dis sorrow pLs
sOo leT me see`
tynk i shall stae away frm u as much as possible
dis will be betta 4 me n u oso de
sorri my dear fren! x)

i cot u looking at her
go woo her baRh
she's a nice geR``
aLl da best 2 da both of u!! =)

2005-02-15T17:52:00.000+08:00

i jus realised i lyk u no more
aint i feeling happier??
aint i feeling less stressed up?
yeah tink sOo`--
i can no longer feel da electric
frm urs to mine
no more feeling
no more red face wen seeing u
nthing`
thanxx 4 allowing me 2 jump out of uR life
yay!! im happi
i finalli m freed
finalli is able to get thru dis tough round
thanxx 4 giving me no hope all dis while`--
=))

2005-02-14T18:52:00.000+08:00

whiee`--
todaE is vaLentines's daE!
suppose 2 be a chao haPpi dae
4 aLl couples baRh i tink
ainT it true?
wen u can like spend da whole dae
jus wif uR loved 1
sure got do sum 'romantic' stuFf de!
hees`--

weLl here is to aLl steads yea?!
hrmms`
let me wish u aLl of u out dere
a veRi veri haPpi vDae spent
n eRmms
shd be having a great time wif uR 'other half' hors?
sOo yea wish u aLl loving till hair white white!!
hees`--
n 4 dose whu dun hav YET hors
dun worri laRh
will find 1 dae de
jia you kss?! =)
but vDae is oso known as frenship dae maRh
sOo enjoy xchanging gifts wif frens okie??
is oso veRi fun de!

anyway`
1st half of da dae todae was aP mood
didnt even tok 2 veRn n jess lors
paiseh aRhs`
not bs u aLl is not in a gd mOod dats aLl
but got quite alot of presents laRh
sOo feel not too baD baRh
den 2nd half of dae got double maths periods
dis new cheR called ms sia came in
n will be teaching us 4 3 mths lorX
i dunno whether i can tahan her nots
i completely dun nOe wat she teaching de
but since todae is vDae
kj took a rose n gave it to her
n yet she gave dis spastic look!!
dis rose is da 1 which i bought wif da g-string inside de
gave it to celest at 1st
but she dun wan lorX
sOo in da end me celest n nat went ard gifing ppL
wahahaX`!!
in da end it landed in da dustbin
pOor thing -.-

after sch we went to da aRt museum
as usual our class is quite empty
mani ppL pon
sOo we went dere to see nude pics?!
yea coZ i realli dun see anything but nude ppL
revealing dose 'unlookable' parts
nvm cant blame dem
suppose artists dun tink weneva dey draw
aLl dose characters cum frm [fei2 ren2 guo2] de lors
fat like dunno wat de
but veRi cute laRh
den take pics n draw on paper
veRi spastic!!
after dat a grp of us jiu go ps eat lunch lors
suppose 2 go swensens de
but in da end no muny
ended up going food court eat laRh
me n veRn share ban3 mian4
coZ she wans to eat lorS!
den we walk walk a while jiu go baQ leR
coZ tmL got chi test!!
i sure fail de
coZ i haven even touch yet lorS
heck!!

anyway`
thnkew every1 4 da presents n swts okie?!
u guys rawK!! =)
*happi vaLentiNe's Dae`--]]

2005-02-04T16:45:00.000+08:00

woots`--
im super duper happi todae!!
veRi fulfiling dae indeed
came up wif dis suddenly:
sch made da bond btw frens stronger
schOoL made us grow up
sch gave us da opportunity to do our part
scHooL made us enthu
scH rawKs!!
y did i came up wif dis??
hrmms`
wen i was swping da floor??
yeah coz i was doing da board maRh
wif nat celest n veRn
den i tink its kinda nice lorX
each of us did our parts baRh i suppose
veRi fen1 gong1 he2 zuo4 de 4 of us
i was da 1 whu stick all da casuarina twigs de
damn pain can!
sOo short n pricky lorx!!
den veRn was kinda da designer?!
nat n celest is everything oso do de
as in like ask dem do wat dey jiu do de
sOo we were quite pia laRh
last time in 2F oso nvr sOo pia b4 de lorX
mebbe coz in 2F i dunnid do de
got koon all dis ppL to do jiu haO leR
den now i chao ji tired lorX
still i find todae veRi fulfiling!!

3F mus win 1st 4 notice board kss?!
3F rawKs!!=)

aRgh!!
my geog test sarKs!
im gonna fail real badly lorX
i 4got how 2 draw da rain gauge lehs
can u believe it??
wen mrs ho jus ask us 2 draw not long ago!
n den everything i oso dunno wat i writing lorX
dis is wat happens wen i gif up revising my work
coZ i seriousli dun understand
dats y nthing jus goes into my brain
hais`-
BUT!!
chi period was fun!!
at 1st we got lecture coZ mani ppL nvr hand in work
but later we were suppose 2 make up cny songs
veRi fun rite?!
anything dat's dunnid study jiu fun liaoX
den i pair wif yuan
n we came up wif dis shi2 ge4 nan2 ren2 [10 men in chi]
n da old macdonald song
jus change da lyrics lorX
da old macdonald 1 is damn act cute de
ee-ya-ee-ya-o!!
wahahax`--
den da [10 men] de is real spastic can!!
its bout shit de -.-
i like nat's de yusong's de n da gep guy de
nat pairs wif celest
den dey came up wif dis wang4 wang4 song laRh
veRi faRnie veRi creative!
naT rawks!! =)
den yusong pairs wif randell
dey veRi cute veRi seh lorx!
is linkin park da 'numb'
yusong rap not baD laRh
n randell is make da introduction music de
even da ending oso damn seh ymy!!
its sOo nice dat even got encore de lorX
rawK on dudes!!
n lastly da gep guy
he got long brreeathhhhhh
change lyrics of 'qi qiu'
not bad laRh can sae
i was kinda stunned
coZ da guys were still making fun of him b4 dat
n i oso tink he's quite aP!!
but yeah not baD laRh`--

i hate u!!!!!!
wat exactly do u wan frm me?!
im not gonna spend da rest of life waiting 4 u
u geddit?!
i jus wan u 2 step out of my life
isit dat diff?!
aRgh!!
i noe its impossible btw us
but i still cling on`
y cant i jus let go?!
i hate u 4 stepping into my world-
i hate u 4 letting me noe u--
wateva
i'Ll try 2 free u`__

2005-02-02T18:03:00.000+08:00

sch till 1.35 seriously sux
i dunno y but nthing jus brights me up
mebbe coz i feel kinda left out?
yeah smthing liddat baRh i guess
actualli i dunno i sit dere 4 wat
like kinda out of place
its jus like
okie they r toking
soo im like suppose 2 jus shut up
n not interrupt dem
but nvm`
1 of us will definitely feel left out de
sOo nvm i shall sacrifice!!
hees`_

but afternoon lessons were not bad
quite alot of ppl not in class liaox maRh
coz da bball geRs todae impt match
all bballers hav 2 go support
sOo can skip afternoon lesson
songx lorx!
but nvm it was fun
cme veRi faRnie =)
we were suppose 2 read a few pages
bout malay chi n hindus de maRh

den 'ah loo' ask us 2 close our bks n test us
i can tell u jess's chi seriously sux can!!
she everything oso dunno how 2 sae lorX
n thanxx 2 me n yuan
help her de lorX!
den every1 is all luan luan ans de lorX
sOo eng translate 2 chi
sae till veRi farnie =)
den physics test was alrite laRh
but i got quite alot of mistakes liaox lorX
im not gonna tell u!!
dose whu nvr take de!! hees`_ =P

after da afternoon lesson
me soolin n jess were trying 2 jump
to touch dat stupid OHP laRh!
i cant touch it!!
its sOo high lorX
den after dat wen soolin go liaoX
me jess weixuan normen aaron n brandon
were in class toking bout hts laRh!
n aLl sorts of crap lorx!
its faRnie laRf till i bui da han
den joke bout aaron's muscles n stuff oso!
sOo yeah`
veRi farnie lorX!

shit!!
i 4got do my hw
shall stop blogging n go do my work liaoX
sEe ya!! =)

2005-02-01T17:34:00.000+08:00

todae is basicalli nthing special lahx
but suddenly hav dis urge 2 tok bout 2 topics
[Friendship] n [simpLe Love]

1st on *FrieNdship`-
like wat da lit ws wrote
its smthing soo simple yet soo diff to explain
y is dis sOo??
cant every1 in dis world be jus plain n da best of frens??
no grudge nthing`
y mus everything in dis world
contribute to every single person's probs??
frens R suppose 2 be by uR side
helping u aiding u walk thru da darkest part of ur life
since wen do frenship start to ruin ppl's mood??
all dis starts wif da word MISUNDERSTANDING!!
wen u do smthing
ppL tend to hav a diff view of u
like acting cute or aaing n stuff
but wen its not intended liddat!
hais`-
mebbe perhaps
nthing n no1 in dis world is perfect
no1 can kip each n every fren by his/her side
no1 can pls all of her frens
no1 can make every1 feel not left out
human beings R jus sOo selfish
wen dey see their best fren telling secrets to another person
dey will start having wild ideas
as if any moment dey may lose this particular fren
cant a person jus hav mani mani frens at da same time??
if dere's onLi 1 fren
aint da life gonna be sOo boring??
like dere's onli 1 colour in uR life
1 dat's full of colours
is den called a perfect life!!
[think bout it ya--]

nxT!!!
[simpLe LovE!-]
wooTs--
dis is an interesting topic to touch on
i believe every1 of u
reading my blog
would hav tasted da feeling of being loved
as well as loving sum1 ya?
dis is a veri special feeling
1st love is 4eva da most un4gettable
but its oso smthing dat wun last
mebbe coZ 1st love is alwaes at a young age..
wen gers n boiis thinking still sOo immature
dey simply treat love as a game
wen sum1 knock on their door
jiu take it
if break up jiu break lorx
no hard feelings at all de
wun feel sad nthing
but wen it cums 2 teenage love
how do ppl feel??
mebbe dey'Ll feel sad
coz we understand wat love is all bout
its da feeling dats deep inside ourselves
da thumping of da heart wen he approaches
da fire-ry feeling within u
signs n symtoms of falling into sum1's love trap!!
veRi nice feeling
but wat if its onLi 1-sided??
its gonna be sOo miserable n heartwrenching
n wat if it involves a love triangle??
not onLi sad
but 1 of dem will oso hav 2 gif up
n look at her loved 1 wif another geR
can any1 stand dat??
yes onLi if uR dat generous
but otherwise its gonna be a whole lot miserable 4 da 1 hurt
life's just sOo unfair
not everything will accomodate 2 every1's mood
making every1 satisfied
wif his/her fate
to sum up`
having a stead provides u wif da feeling of being loved
making u feel uR not lonely in dis world
letting u nOe uR cared by sum1
whu will not abandon u wen u nid help
wen uR down hearing his voice
or receiving his msg
brightens up uR day once again!
[but] u may oso not get da freedon u wan
its like u'Ll hav 2 report everything
wen having a tiff it affects uR mood

howeva not having a stead is nthing to be sad bout too
u will den get all da freedom u wan
no1 interfering into uR probs
no1 to argue wif u over small matters
[but] u may feel lonely wen single
used to da life of having sum1 to lend a shoulder
u may feel wierd without him revolving ard uR world
sOo dere R actualli advantages n disadvantages to everything
n it all depends on uR veri own decision
as well as pt of view!!

dats da end of da pro's fen1 xi1!! =)

2005-01-27T18:53:00.000+08:00

oHh yeah smthing to add on
just now i veRi sianZ mah
sick of studying liaoX
jiu go read every1's testi in frenster
i became qigek!!
aRgH!!!!
[18] im sorri
but i cant bring myself to 4gif u
uR too flirt!!
u not onli wan dat guy
u wan dis guy too
dun u think uR too much??
im sorri if im too harsh
dun take it to heart
anyway`
u oso wun noe whu im toking bout
[my daytrippers member im not toking bout u kss??]=)

2005-01-27T16:38:00.000+08:00

whiee`
looking baQ i quite long nVr cum on9 liaoZ
ppL guai at home study mahZ
hees`____

Tues 25th Jan-
wow!!
its a veRi fun dae lorX
chi n lit veRi fun
xie lao shi lesson
we were suppose to act out da [wusong da2 hu3] thing
den divided into grps of 6
sOo my grp got vern jess nat celest yuan n me mahZ
naT: shop small 2 [in chi]+ a little bit of narrating
celest: da tigerReSS!!
yuan: wusong!!
veRn: da stupid tree x)
me n jess is da narrator!!
den ours still not dat faRnie lahZ
except dat veRn stand on the chair sOo dat she's taller??
n da fighting part lahZ
dick's grP faRniest lorX
got dick kj normen chaihong n timothy
veRi faRnie worX!!
luff until my stomach pain diaoX liao lorX
wahahaX!! =)
dick chaihong n kj faRniest
cLowns Lorx!!

den lit is muZ describe 1 of uR frens
using similies
den we were dere discussing
jiu got dis thing 4 _ _ _ _ _ _ _
[as perky as a mountain]!!
damn faRnie lahZ
mean rite??
aLl veRn fot she think de lorX
dens still got mani more lahZ
but i lazy type out
jiu shi da whole lesson kip luffing lorX!!

ohh yahx
den tues was a clumsy dae lorx
i go my aunt's hse mahZ
den i walk down da stairs
fell down n landed on my butt can!!
wahX sOo paiseh lorX
sOo mani ppL at her hse dat dae oso lorX
all eyes were staring at me
den my idiotic cousin luff at me!!
den i was like quick quick walk away
wahaha --.--

oso go n watch match
our sch bball geRs vs tampines sch
our sch won by 43 pts
12 to 55 lorX
i think da coach is qi gek already
kip shouting here n dere
no.15 tampines sch is shuai lorX!!
though is a geR lahX
but she's veRi seh n da hair
wahX if she's a boi
i sure fall 4 him de ymy!!
both me n jess got dian by her liaoZ =)
gD jOb dhs bBaLleRs!!

weDn n thurs:
sianX diaoX dae`
but da best part is
veRn told me smthing dat
i nvR thot of!!
sOo unexpected lorX
but still wish u aLl da best ya gurL?!
juZ do wat u think is rite
follow uR heart kss?
tell me if dere's any improvements!!
i would like to noe!!
hees`__

aiya
shall go study liaoZ
tmL got chem test
later i fail jiu cham!!
sEe ya!! =)

2005-01-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

whoa wat shd i sae bout todae`
a veri nice n veri bad dae??
yeah`__
da whole dae in class was nice
coZ veRn was crazy!!
i oso dunno wat happen
but she cum to sch veri happi liaoZ lorX
happi happi jiu turn to me
smile n den turn baQ again
like possessed liddat
hahaZ oPps!!
but she's reaLli wierd todae lahZ
anyway she todae got match
sOo aLl da best yeah bbaLlers!! =)

den wen veRn's away
i jiu sit beside jess lorX
we tok bout mani things lahZ
yeah i think [she]'s quite guo fen lorX
aiya shant make it too obvious lahZ
jess n me nOe jiu haO
n i oso nOe jess is pissed
sOo jess!!
relax kzz??
dun get too upset over dem lahZ
later got wrinkles den u nOe
hees`_

after sch was terrible manX
i saw him* flirting!!
wat da shit lorX
im like just behind dem
summore wif my cute fren!!
im qi gek can?!
make my whole dae saRks like dunno wat
kB!!

anyway im still veRi excited bout
da 2F recess tmL
veRi long nvR meet up liaoZ
miss aLl 2F peeps lorX
den oso choose 2f n 3f mortals liaoZ
sOo yeah
juZ hope 4 a betta tml!! =)

2005-01-19T18:39:00.000+08:00

whiee``
i love my mummy
she totalli rawKs can!!
no matter wat my request is
she'Ll try 2 agree to it de lorX
i Love u MumMy!! :)

Kok Jun!!
heard frm wenwen dat uR in hospital
wat happen?!
aiyo betta get well soon kzz??
we niD u to coach us ya?
oR we can die de
sOo geT weLl sOoN!!

hrmmZ`
now den i notice smthing
wen gurLs sae 'i hate him!!'
it means dat dey actualli still care 4 him
hating him is just an act of running away frm da reality
mebbe 1dae every couple shd juZ hav a nice tok
clear aLl da misunderstandings dey hav
n yeah!!
it'Ll be baQ 2 normal
n i guess everything will be fine leR ya?! :)

To aLl couples ouT dere:
seriously
hav a nice talk
i believe it will solve all matters
small or big
aLl flush it out
it'Ll do both parties gd tOo!!

ohh shit!!
how aRhx??
tink she's baQ 2 her old self again
da big ah ji self!
ohh no!! how??
i scared i bui3 da2 han3 her lehX
sum1 muZ stop me wen i start a fight wif her horX`__

tmL i gonna watch nc16 show!!
im sOo excited lorX..
hope i can go in
given my height`
anyway shall gif it a gd try!! :Þ

2005-01-15T18:10:00.000+08:00

haiX~ =(
dis morn juZ heard a bad news
feel kinda sad
[[juZ hope dat [u both] can realli cheeR up lorX
cOoL down 1st zai hav a nice talk bah i guess
no pt toking bout it now
coZ every1's at qi4 tou2 shang4
but realli muZ hav a clear explanation lorX
otherwise like sOo unfair liddat
think of how u aLl started
n den da ending sOo miserable
can u even bear to sEe dat kinda scene?
sOo yeah think bout it lorX__]]

dis news made me think of smthing
teenage is 4eva not taken seriously
even if it does
it wun last coZ of sum childish reasons
in da end onLi hurting urself
n da ppL aRd whu care 4 u
y muZ things turn out liddat?
cant dere be 4eva evalasting love??
dun such love juZ exist among we teens?
such romantic n wei3 da4 de love__
our minds muZ be da 1s at fot
nvR sparing a thot 4 our other halves
onLi hav a wishful n wilful mind
guess datx juZ wat teenage love is called bah
burn easily
but once a water is splashed on it
'booM!!'
dere it goes
gone 4eva
watX left is juZ plain ash
black dull n yucky
left wif onLi plain memories`__

anyway
i think i got a corn on my foot manX!!
freak diaoX!
wierd wierd de lorX
got dis thing popping out
like pimple liddat
den i ask my mummy
she sae is 'corn' lorX!!
chinese called eRmmZ 'chicken eye'??
i dunno worX i onLi nOe its kinda ugLy
heheX~ :)
oHh yahX
haPpi bDaE jeSs!! :)

2005-01-11T16:04:00.000+08:00

todae totalli saRk can`
1st stupid celest n da rest made me da lit rep
i dun wan!!
den horX my shirt like not big aRhx todae!
sianZ siaoX lorX
sOo damn uncomfortable ymy?
lit got dis assignment horX
nid 2 be separated into grps de lahX
den veri heng my grp kinda seh
got nat yuan wei xuan hongming n dunno who else lahX
4got liaoX..
den 1st lesson wif huda mahX
sOo she made us write a poem with
our name da letters as da 1st alphabet of each line
sOo mine goes liddat:
[K]fc i think is cooL
[E]everyone likes it too!!
[E]at and eat but we dun shit
[L]ater become big fat pig
[Y]ou know y my shirt is so big!
1 word 2 describe 'L.a.m.e'!!
all da gurLs' idea de lorX :)
todae is oso da 1st time we hav our 3f recess
gurLs onLi lahX
not bad lorX most of da gurLs were dere`

Let u aLl guess smthing aRhx
if guess dao tell me
smthing frm da bottom of my heart:
[83] & [31] |summore| [83] & [15]
fLirT!!
still i think [31] is hypo manZ
big ah ji!
onLi noes how 2 make life diff 4 other ppl
dun even nOe how 2 think bout other ppL's feelings
tsk tsk--
[83] suX can!!

haiX juZ 1 word frm u
n datZ da end of my beautiful day
iDioT! siam to a side can?!
stop ruining my day lorX!!
thot i veri songX bout u isit?!
u saRk lorX`--

2005-01-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

whoa!!
todae rawks manX
da class is kinda fun lorX i think
coZ 12.30 jiu end sch liaoZ mahZ
sOo is like kip waiting 4 recess
den after recess 2 more lessons jiu no more liaoZ
but still hav 2 stay baQ lorX 4 cca
sianZ diaoX!!-.-
ohh yahX`
i think june loh is nice
she's cute manZ
think i'Ll like chem frm now on bah
wif her as our cheR!

den todae i veri hyper lorX
shara hanwee n other tj peeps cum baQ!!
sOO seh lorX
but she aRhx
idiot bum!!
nvr call me b4 u leave lorX
where's my postcards??
anyway gurL
we miss u manZ!!
nxt time u cuming baQ sms me kzz??
den i can hav xin li zhun bei
heeX!

ohh yahX
i oso saw zhiheng lying down in da bball court dere
heard frm other nat dey all is
he fell n broke his hand isit??
omG!!
i cnt stand dere see de lorX
even hearing frm dem i like cnt stand properly already lorX
sOo betta dun see best
but still hope he get well soon lahX
although i dunno him
nvr even tok 2 him b4
yeah get well soon lorX!! :)

2005-01-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

whiee`
todae didnt go sch nehX
best manZ!
coZ ytd nite i got gastric pain lorX
den cnt get to slp
kip fanning here n dere
dis morning still not okie
den mummy jiu sae dun go sch leR lah
afternoon bring me go sEe doc
sOo i juZ skip a dae of boring sch!:)

ytd nite i juZ started writing da commonwealth compo lorX
quite cooL manZ`
i wrote da slow down dat 1
a Love sTory kind lorX
bout like how dis couple 1st held hands on their 1st date
how dey got along
n in da end how dey broke up n stuff lahZ
betta den normal essay writing lorX
got more imagination
heeX~

aiya`
shall kip it juZ dis short lahZ
since im sOo tired
n da damn medicine made me feel like
like im floating liddat lorX
irritating!
byeZ~! :)

2005-01-04T17:59:00.000+08:00

1st dae in 3F`
quite sianZ actualli
da whole dae besides choosing class com
noeing whu our form n maths cher is
dat stupid time table
think is nthing else liaoZ lorX
actuaLli seriously think our form cher quite nice lahZ
but its realli sianZ lorX da whole dae

nat sit wif celest
vern sit wif jess
i sit beside rachel
ohh yahX
class com of 3F`_
chairperson: hongming
monitor: dom
monitress: shuwen [saBo!]
treasurer: vern :)
secretary: kejing
spcs: nat n wenhua [dis 2 alwaes put 2gether de]
yepX think datZ bout it liaoZ lorX!

den todae`
didnt go baQ class lorX
coZ think is not much lessons de
n den got dat orientation thing
suppose to go at 12 de lahZ
but me n wen wen requested to help out earlier lorX
n sOo nice
dey agreed!
sOo was quite fun lorX
coZ got 1 class rite da boi damn faRnie
he's sOo damn enthu bout co lorX
in da LT kip changing his seat to watch each grp perform
wahX bui da han
he's sOo cute lahX!

den later in da afternoon got performance in hall
sOo paiseh kip plaeing wrong thing lahX`
n den we went up 2 da viewing gallery dere watch others lorX
sOo not veri fun oso lahX`_

2005-01-02T11:45:00.000+08:00

[3112] whoa was a totalli bimbotic dae kzz?!
was suppose to meet nat vki wenhua n koon
to celebrate nat's bdae at 12.30 de lorX
but guess wat practicalli every1 was late?
vki was still slping at 12.30
koon came frm outram sOo veri long de
wenhua sae he'll leave his home once every1 reach
nat reached 1st but read storybooks in da whitesands library!
n me! i was dumb lorX!!
i took mrt frm somerset den i missed my cityhall stop
n onli realised wen i reach marina bay -.-
den i took baQ da opp train but was smsing nat
sOo missed my cityhall stop again!
n end up in toa payoh lorX!!!
in da end i decided to take a cab instead
waste my time`_
anyway we actualli thot of watching a nc16 show
but look at all our heights expect 4 koon's
sure cnt get in de lorX
sOo we end up watching ocean's 12
not bad lahZ sum parts quite faRnie
but overall hai hao lorX coZ i dun realli understand
ohh yahZ b4 dat we went to swensen's
naT's treaT!!!
sOo to be nice we ordered to sets onli
n 1 topless5 n left wif a bit at da end rite
sum1 suggested to mix water n chilli inside lorX
1 word 'SuX'!!
after dat i went orchard countdown wif my family n cousins lorX
wow! roX lorX!!
sOo high lorX every1 sOo yeah nice new yr celebration

[0101] a bRanD new yR a brand new start!*_
all da ppl ard me:
4get all ur unhappiness
wipe out all ur sad memories
n kip da sweet 1s!
its a swt n exciting new yr ahead
stand up on ur feet again
n welcome 2005 wif open arms! =D
2004 has been a tough yr bah
sOo mani big big incidents happen
like da huang na thingy
n da stupid idiotic tsunami!
which puts a black n awful dot to da end of 2004_
anyway todae was another rainy dae
sOo actualli wanted it 2 be an exercising dae
but cnt mahZ sOo my aunt's 1 fren cum my hse lorX
played mahjong again!
but i won 17+ bucks sOo im happi!!
den at nite we went to eat buffet
wen we fin bout to go horX
we trick my older sis lorX
coZ she toking on da phone wif her bf till sOo ru shen
1 by 1 we walk out
den she ownself sit dere tok lorX
till half an hour later she cai realise
wahahaha! =D

[0201] todae! i dunno watZ gonna happen
but i onli nOe tmL is sch reopen
n i haven do my hw!
im deaD meaT lorX`_

2004-12-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

y isit dat sOo many things is simply going thru my mind?
frens, last time 'closer' frens , work n everything
m i thinking too much?
or isit dat times r realli changing
n i'Ll hav to face up to sum of da probs
i didnt use to hav?
mebbe its juZ dat da key to da close up heart
is still not found
not opened up by da key angel`__

[To my dearest fren]:
whether or not u read diZ post
juZ wanna let u nOe i understand
uR rite`
da trust btw u urself n everybody else
onLi has a limited space
u cant possibly believe wat i sae
doubts will still be spotted
even if u dun name dem out`
aLl i hav to sae is
yeah iVe once not been truthful to u
but i promise its onli once
juZ to kip our diZ veri precious frenship going
but not diZ time`
ever since dat veri dae i lied to u
i swear n promise not to ever again
coZ i feel bad
i cried`
u wun nOe how much diZ frenship means to me
n how it has helped me walk thru my life
but it realli means tons`__

[To mEix mEix]:
thnkew meiX
i nOe uVe done alot behind my back
juZ to help me move on wif my life
im sorri 4 all da blames
but deep down
i appreciate everything dat uVe done 4 me
uR a great meix meix
juZ unlucky to hav a bad sis like me
nthing but trouble to u
ppl sae uR more like a bigger sis
n i think sOo too`
not onli in appearance but oso in every aspect
im suppose to be da 1 looking after u
n not da other way round
i shdnt hav been a burden to every1
coZ of my own probs
datZ y i chose diZ road
moving away to live my life`
pls dun feel sad
coZ uLl make me worse
take care of urself`__

FinaLli........
[To aLl my koRx, jiEx, diDix n u]:
iVe been like a little kid
diZ 2 yrs in dhs
pushed n squeezed u guyZ wif all my probs
wat i get in return
is all u ppl's care n support
i dun deserve it`
ending up being not independent
juZ like without u all
means da end of da world 4 me`
nthing will be accomplished
yeah
u guyZ may sae u'Ll rmb me
but ask urself is dat true?
or isit juZ to make me feel relieved
coZ u all hav been trying to please me all diZ time?
u all may rmb me 4 like 1 mth
but wat if i nvr cum baQ 4 like 2 yrs or so
will u in ur memory
still lives a gurl by da name of keely?
i dun think sOo`
sOo pls
4 da time being let me rmb da daes wif u
n after dat u may rub it off anytime
i wun blame u`

2004-12-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

[To daddy n mummy]:
im sorry`
was too selfish to onli think bout wat i wan
n not wat u guyZ feel`
i thot u'Ll be quite open bout everything
until da dae i opened it up
im realli sorri_
itZ juZ part of my wishful n wilful thinking
i noe i'Ll miSs aLl of u
but its alwaes been my dream
n coZ of da situation im in
i chose diZ time to leave u all
meBbe u'Ll not understand me
but i swear n promise i love u aLl`_

iVe postphoned my flight to tues
n cum baQ on thurs
sOo as to arrange things dere
n to celebrate my last new yr wif u
dun worry daddy mummy i hav 'mango jie jie' dere
nthing will happen de
i promise
i'Ll onLi leave at june
sOo i can hav a nice tok wif u
dun cry kzz? =D

[To aLl my frenZ out dere]:
not leaving diZ time
u may think im lying or wat
but i swear wif my heart n soul im not`
n mostly imptly im not treating u all like 3yr old kids
i cant believe my best fren actualli said dat
believing me or not
is not up to me to decide
it will all hav to depend on uR trust 4 me`
making a mistake once
will make ppL disbelieve u 4eva
in wateva u do
but does dat mean ppl will not change?
i dunnO`

2004-12-02T11:26:00.000+08:00

1 mth gonE!
fast?
not realli dat fast
slow?
not realli dat slow
life's been miserable n fun`
full of ups n downs
but yeah`
learn to look frm a diff view
mebbe life will be easier ya?`

decision hasnt been made
probably coZ of da onli obstacle still in my heart`
still i'Ll hav to face it
enuff of hiding n running away
be it [dere] or here`
a brand new mth
a brand new life!

my hse damn smelly now
painting mahX`
sOo mani 'ah pu neh' ard lorX
sOo can sae im hardly at home now adays`
cOoL__
got excuse go out leR
poor bom bom have to be kept in da rm`
otherwise she will run out mahX
shall bring her out too bah`

2004-11-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

woah
suddenly miss 2F veri veri much
shall hang out 1 of dese daes ya?`
heHeX__`

anyway
todae went out wif meix meix`
vern n vki ask me out tok de
but she shy`
didnt wan to tag along
sOo decided to meet dem another dae
otherwise she veri poor thing
all alone at home`

went bugis
watch 'thE iNcRediBLeS'!
not veri faRnie
but ok lahZ can lorX`
pei meiX more impt mahZ

den we go take neos
use 10+ bucks`
sOo mani ppl damn crowded
make me no mood take oso`
damn tired`

2004-11-25T11:33:00.000+08:00

ohh yahX`
saE sOo mucH
i 4get tell u guyZ
iVe got video clip of
Avril Lavigne'My Happy Ending'
jusT click da red traffic light__
enjoY!`

2004-11-25T11:21:00.000+08:00

aM i ouT oF mY minD??
waHx fuck lah`
i must be__

sorry bout ytd nite
i realli didnt mean to de`
but isnt it da best choice?
since its gonna be da end of everything
y not just let me seem to vanish
dun appear anymore`

12 Dec ha`
i'll rmb diZ 4eva
sae gd-bye to everything n every1`
start a brand new life
but it aint sOo easy to 4get
everything dat has happen`

going baQ to da old me
bubbly n cheerful`
i feel as if my heart has been locked up
n iVe yet to find da person
to find da *key*
N open it up`

Life totalli sux liddat`
how i wish nthing of dese has happened
but wateva`
its all past past past
i can ask 4 no more`

2004-11-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

yeah
i dun gif a fuck anymore
i'Ll rmB diZ 4eva
iVe already done everything dat i can
still its da same ending
wat else do u expect frm me?

wateva`
itS aLl in da damN paSt
diz few daes hav been hectic 4 me
haven gone out 4 like centuries liaoZ`
mebbe im juZ running away frm
da reality
da damn fact
juZ try not to think bout it`

every nite same old routine
tell myself not to think sOo much
anything tml zai sae`
but its nvr ending...........
m i happi?
i doubt sOo`

sumtimes i juZ wish
i hav an accident or wat
juZ make me lose all my memory`
let me start a fresh new life
not having any fan naos
is dat possible?
datZ da best way i can think of

nobody gave me a chance to make amendments
sOo wat if iVe realli changed`
sOo wat if i wan to treat u well
nobody gave me da chance to
n iVe realli given up`
im too tireD

satuRdae will be da deadline`
by da end of dat dae
it will be a full stop`
i'Ll be waiting~

2004-11-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

wHoa~! happi worX =D.. bdaE juZ oVeR meaning i old 1yr liaoZ or rather is more mature liaoZ.. haHaZ.. juZ realise i hav been kinda childish diZ yR worX.. mani thingZ dunno how to think it in a diff way ending up as a 'disaster'.. isit a bit too late to change da mistake?.. i realli dunno worX.. but iVe already done everything dat i can liaoZ leR worX.. da rest is realli not up 2 me to decide liaoZ.. still my 1 n onli bdae wish hasnt cum true.. -waiting-`

13 nOv- it means alot to me.. i got bdae wishes frm ppl whu i didnt expect will rmb de.. as well as frm ppl whu r close to me de lahZ.. still not frm da person whu iVe been waiting for.. anyway was kinda disappointed wif sum ppl lahZ.. but yeah had a realli great time wif tiff n liang ya?.. u peepZ raWk!.. we spend 20+ on neos?.. yeah n we hav realli run out of poses.. realli fun spending time wif u guyZ.. u all made me 4get my fan nao dat dae n made it enjoyable.. xie xie ni men worX! =D

2004-11-09T13:19:00.000+08:00

yOyOz~! waHx i veRi happi worX.. baQ in 3[F] again! haHaZ.. 4 straight yrs all 'f ' sOo cOoL maNz.. well there are stuff to be happi bout n got sum not veri happi bout de lorX.. hmmZ.. leT me sEe 13th nov sounds familiar to u?.. big dae to me n iVe been waiting 4 1 whole yr 4 it.. veri fast jiu dao leR! heHeZ..sOo pPL u nOe wat to do lah hOrx?.. jkjk..=P life has been quite alrite 4 me diZ few daes bah.. ytd still went out wif nat pq ly n xumei.. watch shark's tale.. ok lahX.. not bad lahZ but still think finding nemo betta lorX.. hahaZ.. oHh yahx b4 dat hOrx.. i go out wif my aunt lorX to bugis.. she totalli RoX manZ! she help me choose clothes den ask me go try jiu buy liaoZ.. nvr even think de lorX.. veRi faRniE in da bus.. we veRi sianZ mahZ we jiu look at every1 whu came in da bus lorZ.. she ask me slowly turn my head to see a lady sitting behind us.. coZ dat gurl sitting in da back row mahZ.. den summore her skirt sOo short she still open her leg sOo big.. den my aunt sae ppl walking in confirm can sEe damn clearly de.. haHaZ.. den at nite my another aunt jiu bring me go pp choose mp3 4 me worX.. damn songX lorX ytd! heHeZ..

2004-10-28T17:17:00.000+08:00

yOyOz~! wahX i chao ji long nvr cum on9 liaoZ leR worx.. coZ my com blast liaoZ.. hehex.. hmmZ.. wahx sOo mani thingZ happen worx diz whole wk.. smtimes even feel like collapsing.. den iZ like my results chao lan lorX.. deprove like dunno how much manZ.. summore i receive dao sum wierd wierd stuff dese few daes lorX.. hai me wu yuan wu gu kena scolded by diZ nvr heard n nvr seen b4 gurL lorX.. making e worst of my life manZ.. if i find out whu she is i gonna peel her skin n cook curry aRh! iDiOt! den still got ytd nite had da longest n biggest quarrel wif my mum.. all thanxx 2 dat gurl make my mum xin qing bu hao.. den she jiu 4 no reason think i plae truant lorX.. siaox.. summore still wan help me choose my nxt yr combi.. i damn qi gek kzz.. heng i hold baq manZ.. otherwise i would hav juZ leave diZ damn irritating freaking hse leR.. den in da afternoon argue wif [him] over sum small stuff but veri fast jiu mei shi leR.. sianZ.. totalli freaking dae worX.. aRgH!
hmmZ.. heng todae still not a sOo bad dae.. got baQ report bk.. wahZ i was damn scared manZ.. if i deprove my mum's gonna kill me but heng i improve a little bit onli.. but still haven show her yet.. hope she wun get angry lorZ.. but still da results veri lan lorZ.. hahaZ.. sTae baQ pei vki todae till she go 3rd lang.. we basicalli is siaoZ liaoZ leR lorX.. shout n scream in da class.. jump frm table to table.. kick her wallet ard in da canteen.. was chao ji farnie jiu shi leR lahZ.. hahaZ.. =D ohh yahZ.. but whu's dat idiot whu tagged my board till liddat aRhx?.. damn irritating lehX.. can u like own up?.. idioT!

2004-10-18T19:22:00.000+08:00

[1] Was there a person you wanted to spend wif the rest of ur life?

yuPx. there still is..
[2] If the one you love loves someone else, what will you do?

wait lorx.. wat else can i do?..
[3] What was the biggest mistake you have done in a relationship?

oOoX.. chim qn nehx.. muz let me think`
[4] If you could turn back time,what would you have done?

hmmZ.. not letting her even nOe bout us?..
[5] If you like someone right now, what is it in her/him that made you fall for her/ him?

i suppose iZ everything bah.. frm head to toe..
[6] Would you consider yourself lucky at this point because of someone?yupx.. [he] add colours to my life..
[7] What is the greatest sacrifice you have done for love?

can i dun ans diZ qn?..
[8] Who is the person you would call 'my life'right now?

somebody i love lahZ.. duh..
[9] Do you believe in love at first sight?

hmmZ.. mebbe mebbe not?.. but i still think most prob yes bah..
[10] If you have a best friend of the opposite sex, why of all did you pick him/her?

coZ he's alwaes dere wen i needed him.. coZ he's alwaes dere to care 4 me..=D niCe freN!
[11] What if you fell in love with your bestfriend, would u tell him/heR? hmmZ.. depends bah.. but i guess not lorX.. coZ smtimes itZ juZ betta to kip it diz way.. no changes plz..
[12] Destiny / Magic?

well.. destiny i guess.. more reality but oso believe in magic.. coZ i like fairytales n da happi endings.. hahaZ =D
[13] How can you let go of someone that wasn't yours from the start? wahZ u ask me aRhx.. datz like soo diff lorX.. how i noe? dun see him or tok 2 him at all i guess.. get him out of ur mind slowly bah..
[14] Are you scared of being rejected?

ermmZ.. sumhow yes?..
[15] Does looks matter to you?

hahaZ.. nopeX lahz..
[16] Do you always get jealous to the person evenshe/he's only your so called admirer? nopeX..
[17]R u iN luRvEe noW ?

sumhow yes?.. but do i hav a choice?..
[18] Have you ever felt that the person you're inlove with don't like you but actually she/he likesyou?

hahaZ.. yes! datz chao gong kzz?.. itZ like bout 2yrs later cai find out de lorX..
[19] Who do you like ?[him]
[20] Who do you love now?dun tell u..
[21] Who do you miss now? fei hua! [him] lahZ..
[22] If you already broke up with him/her,what is the reason that caused both of you to break up?

hmmZ.. i noe da ans to it liaoZ.. but muZ u sOo stupidly go rake it up?.. iDioT!

2004-10-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

yOyOz pEePz~! wHoa.. todae got interclass worX.. aLl thanxx to pRo naT's seRvinG sKiLls wE woN 2E bY aLot.. haHaZ.. deN aFteR daT vaN's LeG injuReD LiaOz.. deN jiU asK mE gO taKe oVeR heR pLacE.. wahX sCaRy sia.. i sOo sCaRed i'Ll fLoP eVeRytHinG LoRx.. haHaZ.. deN 1sT half we woN by 2pTs.. but 2nd half lose jiU got 1 more round we lose again.. sOo in da enD iZ we LosE LaHz.. haHaZ.. deN in daT caSe hOrx.. tmL muZ vS da gepS LoRx.. thinK suRe LosE da LoRx.. dey sOo pRo aNy kinD oF baLl oSo caN caTcH.. iF wiN oSo tYcO tYcO de.. haHaZ..juZ pRaY caN wiN LoRx.. haHaZ.. deN wE sTaE tiLl LiKe bOuT 4 tO waTcH da gUyZ maTcH.. vS 2i buT deY floP iT.. haHaZ.. nVm LaHz.. deN wE cOnT pLaEinG tiLl LikE qUite LaTe uNtiL i tHinK i kiNda cHaO da LiaOz.. haHaZ..

sOo maNi tHingZ haPpeN LoRx.. iM reaLli sOrRi 4 eVeRytHinG daT haS haPpeN.. 4 oNcE iN LiKe sOo maNi yRs i cRieD.. teaRs sTaRt fLowinG wEneVa i tHinK bOuT iT.. iTz aLl mY foT.. i oNLi haV mYseLf tO bLaMe n nO1 eLsE nOt eVeN mY muM.. deRe'S rEaLli nThinG i caN dO oR saE tO cHaNgE waTeVa uR tHinKinG buT i sTiLl haV tO saE iM rEaLli sOrRi.. =(

2004-10-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

wOoTz~ sOo long nvR bLoG liaOz.. coZ mY daMn cOmP sPoiL maHz.. noT mY fot.. haHaZ.. hmmZ.. eXaMs finaLli oVeR liaoOz daMn sTreSs pReVioUsLy.. nOw pHeW.. iTz aLl oVeR n dOnE wiF liaOz.. kZz kZz.. LeTz seE tOdaE waS pLaEinG vBaLl deN afteR daT jiU gO ouT wiF naT, vaL n neR.. gO yuKi yaKi daMn LaO kUi.. wE eaT LiKe sOo muCh iCe cReaM aLl neR's foT.. deN iN e enD sHe sTomaCh aChe kiP gOinG tOileT.. haHaZ.. deN wE saW feNgYi deY aLl n maNi manNi oTheR duNmaN da reN LoRx.. haHaZ..

[ `oii!_* ]

u ought to change geR`

itz all in da past ler but y muz u rake it all up

u make da worse out of ppl's life`

sTories up n stories down

u all r 4eva in da past liaoz ler

stop thinking

stop telling da whole world

stop acting uR 4eva not in da wrong

no1's trying to break ur frenship wif dem lorx`

not me

y muz u sae dat of every1`

hypocrite!

i start hating u

wen u sae all dat idiot stuff to others`

cant u see dat dey dun like u too

dey r pissed!

be more zi dong`

u r not da victim in da whole story

n we r oso not saeing ur da huai ren lorx

not saeing im not wrong

i hav mistakes

but dun u think u hav urself to blame too`

pls

stop all da damn crap`

y muz u flirt`

y Y y??

oR iziT itZ uR nature?

'i nOe it sux to hav sum1 hate u'

i pity u!

i sympatise wif u!! iZ dat enuff?

finE`

we dun care bout wat u think kzz

bLeah

2004-10-02T18:06:00.000+08:00

vicki is SAD.

2004-10-02T15:17:00.000+08:00

waHx FaT aSs suX maNz!! *piSseD* waLaOz haV i eVa oFfeNdeD u iN aNy bLoOdy waY??.. sToP aCcuSinG mE LoRx.. wTh!! i nVr eVeN saE aNythinG LoRx.. LikE iTz mY foT LidDaT.. sToP iT kZz?! 1 LaSt waRninG oR daTz iT!! uR gOnNa bLaSt 4eVa!! *kaBoOm* haHaZ.. kzz kZz.. fiN veNtinG mY fruStratioNs LiaOz..

oK.. nOw tOk bOuT haPpi tHinGz.. yTd aCtuaLli i veRi faN buT deN gO ouT wiF naT pQ n ceLesT tO pP jiU oK LiaOz.. deY daMn faRniE.. kiP aDdinG sOo muCh saLt tO eVeRytHinG daT wE eaT.. haHaZ.. aCtuaLli vKi oSo sUpPosE tO gO de.. buT sHe paO qi mE gO jeSs's hSe.. tOo baD!! iTz fuN heRe.. u miSs da fuN!!! wOoTz~! (no i dint!**) deN nOw aT vKi's hSe dO aRt!! wE R da paRtneRs wE R da paRtneRs~!!!! wOoHoO~! nO1's gOnNa sEpaRaTe uS!! wE R da dOubLe duOs n wE'Ll raWk oUr aRt!! yEaH!! haHaZ.. (LAME**) i veRi LoNg cNt cUm oN9 LiaOz LeR LoRx.. coZ oF da sUpeR dupEr bLoOdy eXaM.. i duN LiKe iT!! i haVeN sTudY!! waT aM i gOnNa dO??! *peNgx* fiNe.. sHaLl bE guAi kia n sTudY wiF mY haO peNg yOu vKi!! =D

2004-09-26T13:26:00.000+08:00

wOoTz! diZ wK waS baSicaLly fuN LoRx.. eSpeCiaLly FridaE! haHaZ.. coZ itZ mOoNcaKe ceLeBraTioN maHz.. deN waS kiNda LoOkiNg 4waRd tO iT LoRx.. coZ pasT feW daEs n wKs waS kinDa sTreSs mahZ.. kiP sTudYinG n sTudYinG onLi 4 eXaMs n tEsTz n eVeRytHinG eLsE LoRx.. haHaZ.. deN fiNaLli caN likE reSt n reLaX a whiLe liaOz.. sOo quiTe fuN LaHz.. buT juZ da kaRaoKe sOnGz eRmmZ.. vEri naN tinG.. aLl sOo cHiNa-piaNg n oBiaNg LoRx.. buT nVm.. dUrinG daT pEriOd wE wEre pLaYinG n LigHtinG caNdLeS deN oK LaHz.. haV bOrinG haV fuN LoRx.. oHh yaHz b4 daT.. wE pLaY vBaLl frM neaRly 3 wHoLe hRs buT iN btW wE gO cHeErs bUy foOd 4 da cLaSs LoRx.. n siSheNg sTiLl oWe mE muNy!! haHaZ.. afteR daT gOt da duNno waT cai deNg mi dOng dOnG LoRx.. i waSnT eVeN tHinKinG.. deN daT feNgyi n jiaMiN siaOz LiaOz.. gO aRd sQuiRtiNg pPL wiF waTeR.. sOo i cHiLdisH maHz oSo pLaE LoRx.. kiP gOinG refiLl waTeR.. sHaRa sQuiRt mY eYeS!!.. deN i aP maHz.. jiU gO sQuiRt suM1 wHu saEd sMthiNg hE's nOt sUpPosE tO saE.. n sOo [he] sUaY LoRx.. haHaZ.. [u nOe wHu u R LaHz hOrX..] diZ iZ mY 1sT timE sTaE iN sCh tiLl sOo LaTe LorX.. aT niTe maNi tHinGz haPpeN LaHz.. laZy bLoG aLl oUt LiaOz.. haHaZ.. sOrRi aRhz.. aLl bLoG bOuT FriDaE coZ yTd n tOdaE nThinG rEaLli haPpeN LaHz.. juZ daT yTd wEnT tO 7eLeVn wiF vKi n saT aT e sTaiRs eaT cuP nOoDLes cai gO tOwNeR deRe.. deN aFteR daT gO vaN's hsE dO cOoKinG tiLl 6.30 liDdaT.. datZ bOuT iT bahZ! byeZ~! =D

2004-09-17T19:06:00.000+08:00

heyZ pEePz HeYz pEePz~! u nOe waT?.. diZ feW daEs oR raThEr diZ wHoLe bLoOdy wEeK iM daMn yOnG cUm n gUai LoRx.. eVeRydaE riTe aFteR sCh jiU gO hOmE sTuDy LikE siaOz.. oSo dUnNo y.. meBbE coZ i bEcUm pErManeNtLy gUai LeR baHz.. heHeX =P.. diZ wHoLe wEeK waS LikE sai 4 mE LoRx.. aLl mY bRaiN ceLLs kiLleD LiaOz aFteR sTudyinG n mEmOriZinG aLl e biO sTuFf.. 1sT timE sOo eNthU tO sTudy sCi dE LeHx.. haHaZ.. biO raWks maNz!!.. oOpSiE~ finaLli nO tesT tmL LeR.. sOo jiU sTaE baQ pLaE vBaLl a wHile deN cuM oN9 sLaCk sLaCk a LitTle LoRx.. haHaZ.. haiZ duNno y hoRx.. buT tOdaE suDdeNLy feEL nOt vEri gD bOuT [iT] LoRx.. juZ duN haV da mOoD tO u nOe.. tOk n sEe [iT] meBbe coZ i nuMb LiaOz LeR LaHz.. duNno LeHx.. haHaZ.. waTeVa.. i waNna waTcH da gHosT!! tHinK iT raWks LoRx.. cHaO ji sCaRy LeHx frM da cOmMeRciaLs LaHz.. haHaZ.. sOo hOrX aNy1 waN waTcH caN aSk mE aLoNg hOrX.. coZ iM deSpeRaTe!! haHaZ.. =D